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Tuesday, February 28, 2006
life, death and everything else nice
lolx. nuthin much to talk abt today, so i shall talk abt life. which i dun haf. and which i'm supposed to do some weird thing for presentation on thursday, which i can't since i dun haf a life. haha. so tt's juz too bad. haha. ok. done
death seemed like sth gd today, for no reason. i juz got sad and depressed all of a sudden and started thinking abt sad stuff and even worse stuff. haha. oh wellz. i guess tt's juz too bad... =S oh well. but dun worrie. i dun think i'm gg to commit suicide anytime soon, despite the fact that everytime i go to my tagboard, i'm gg to see enghui's tag staring me in the face telling me i sldn't commit suicide when i din haf any thots abt tt b4 she put it there. tsk tsk. hahaha
oh wellz. ok. tt's tt. and i think i serioulsy hate Jc life. esp the idea of heavy trg b4 lunch. cos i dun feel like eating anymore when the time comes for food, cos i'm like super full from all the running/exercising. Zzz. oh wellz. anywayz, another thing. i'm in pain all over again. and tt's not gd. haha. but oh wellz. lalala...
oh yeh. speaking of which, i think this rox. i'm gg to have some1 to eat lunch with tomorrow! yay! haha. too bad. daoing me og =P haha. eating lunch tomorrow with Toon wen cos she's showing me where to go for first aid. lolx. not my idea. haha. but oh wellz. at least i got some1 i hafn't talked to in abt 1/2 a yr or so to talk to lar. haha. which is gd cos my life seems like damn boring most of the time, esp since i'm usually talking to the same ppl over and over again. ahha. oh wellz
ok. i seriously can't think of anything else to talk abt anymore, save tt colours is like the hottest game to hit sch life since the advent of bridge. haha. and tt rox. besides tt, i slpt damn early last nite, but i felt damn damn damn damn tired to day in sch for totally no reason at all. Zzz. haha. oh wellz. i guess tt juz sux. i guess my body needs like quite a lotta time for it to fully recharge energies and all. haha. but oh wellz. get on with life Xavier late nites are bad for ur health. and while i'm at it, i think i shall juz gif more ppl my blog url. haha. since i've got totally nuthin else to do and hopefully ppl r more mature this yr not to spam juz for their own entertainment. haha. but it's not my prob i guess. haha. ok. time to go back to mugging =D haha. buhbyeez
6:21 pm
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Monday, February 27, 2006
FLOORBALLLLLLL!!!! I LIKEEEEEEE
lolx. haha. today was uber fun! =D had floorball today, and again, BW owned!!! well... not rily. we won lar. but not very fair cos Hadley Hulllet had 2 full teams to field, and one of them was made up of the girls' hockey team.. haha. but we still won in the end! =D haha. so tt rox =) lol... floorball is seriously damn tiring for me lar... i spent most of the time during the aftermatch game as goalie... and still damn tired and painfull... haha. oh wellz. but at least i'm getting exercise. haha. so tt rox =P haha
tt aside. i dun rily know what else to talk abt today.. haha. i guess i sld mention tt i asked limenwei to help me get a set of uno cards. haha. i wanna bring to sch and play lar. stupid rule which states we can't play poker cards b4 5... Zzz... but oh wellx
i think i sld look for some1 to exercise with me on Fridays. like b4 i go for my og lunch or sth... haha. but oh wellz. quite difficult to find some1 to exercise with me, esp since i'm not talking abt running, and well... weights aren't always the most popular form of exercise. haha. oh wellz
aiya. i can't think of anything else to write abt... wait a second! oh yeh. goddamnit. i almost forgot. Alvin Yong showed me a copy of Cleo tocday... and guess who's in the top 3 position for most eligible bachelors for this yr? 0.0 OMG. it's KENNETH LOW... omg. now tt is seriously sick. haha. i feel like puking again lar. blardy. it's damn sick lor. haha
ok. i shan't say any other evil stuff here anymore. gg off. buhbyeez
8:46 pm
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Sunday, February 26, 2006
Farewell to Diary-x
lolx. i think i'm being damn bad to blogspot having my farewells written here, but with any lucky, the number of ppl reading this is gg to b like damn small, cos my blog is literally almost unknown now, and i sorta hope to keep it tt way. haha. still got like a ton of ppl to go and inform abt my blog change, and i'm not sure i rily wanna tell every1 abt it, esp since i kinda like the annomyity. haha. but oh wellx. nvm
diary-x rocked lar. i mean like the way to post stuff, and it sorta was a gd place for me to hide on for the period i was there. a lotta ppl found out abt the new blog url, and got the usual spammers, but at least this was like quite small in the end, haha. better than blogspot at least. and i cld juz password the posts whenever i needed to. haha. but oh wellx. tt's all gone and done alridy. haha. can't go back to tt. so i guess i'll continue on blogspot until a new blogdriver with passwording capabilities comes arnd. haha. oh wellx.
ok. i guess i can't talk abt it anymore w/o being sad. din rily slp much last nite again. even tho i went to bed quite early. haha. thanx for the sms liting. but it's not gg to work much... tho... nuthin u can rily do abt it. my brain is juz damn active this entire wk... can't slp, and even my best efforts aren't gg to work. brain active = cannot slp = haf problems slping. i wonder when this will juz run outta energy. i dun even feel tired despite the tiny amt of slp i've been having. haha. and apparently, i feel better lidis. oh wellz. nvm lar. next wk got a couple of tests, better start mugging for them alridy. haha. ok
i think i shall go off alridy. buhbyeez. will post later tonite, and if u wanna read abt my previous stuff, go and read the last post. ok. buhbyeez
11:57 am
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Saturday, February 25, 2006
WK OF THE CRASH
2 Weeks ago:
Ok. Lolx. This was being done on MS word. Cos I cldn;t haf access to my beautiful blog which is currently down thanx to the noob server being destroyed. Lolx. Anywayz, this wk was seriously damn happening, and a lotta stuff I am proly gg to regret having done, happened. Lolx
Ok. Firstly, Monday was fun, and I dun rily rmb anything abt it. Lolx. Except I was like in a giant dilemma cos I cldn't decide whether to gif ppl stuff on Tuesday or not. Lolx. So I spent monday agonizing over stupid stuff and other assorted stupid stuff such as whether we were alive or dead alridy, and juz din know it. Stupid rite? Yeh. I know. Lolx
Then Tuesday came, and I still dunno y I did what I did on Tuesday, but it was proly thanx to some random inspiration which I suddenly had, which I din actually want. Which was bad. Lolx. But I shan't gif the details. Anywayz, for those who have been living at the bottom of a deep dark hole which u can't find a way out of, Tuesday was valentine's day, so yess... I did sth stupid along those lines... and I think I screwed up a lotta ppl. Esp some1. hello liting. Lolx. Ur name is here again. I dunno what ur name has to do with regards to this paragraph, but wadever. Lolx. I'm damn random, and frigging pissed off that the wk I feel like blogging a lot, diary-x has to go and down and die. And it's been for like 5 + dayz alridy. Feels like an eternity tho. Lolx
Wednesday came, and well... sorted out stuff on Tuesday nite alridy. Felt damn weird, but still... oh wellz. Haha. Anywayz, it's over and I wish ppl wld stop talking abt it. I juz wanna get on with life. Made a calculation error, and misjudged timing, so screwed up. Gd attempt for first attempt I guess, but I think I sld stick with gifing other ppl bad advice. Dun understand wad I'm writing? Think harder. This is supposed to b random and crap nubhead. Haha
Anywayz, I was supposed to spend the afternoon with limenwei. Haha. Had lunch with gar geoi, mingfang, liting and gengrui at comlumbariam. Haha. Oh wellz. Hahahaha. Anywayz, I dragged limenwei along with me, for the fun of it. Then went back to Rj. Was supposed to go for limenwei's ncc's training, for the fun of it, budden I got lazy, so I din go in the end. Hahaha spent the rest of the time in Rj playing cards with zilin and company. Haha. Sorrie lar. I'm seriously like damn bored nowadays lar. Haha. I mean I've got totally nuthin to do besides mug. I always thot tt jc was supposed to b damn fun, but it turns out tt I was wrong. Critically wrong. Haha. Ok. Nvm
Thursday... better liao. And din feel so weird anymore. Talked much more. But I still feel a little weird at times. Haha. Spent the rest of the day being stupid and slacking. Then played cards after sch again before finally gg home. Haha. Sorrie lar. I've got totally no life one. Haha. And then umm... I can't rmb anything else liao. Haha. But oh wellz. Hahahaha
Ok then finally, I think this is like the last of what I can think of to say liao. It's like Friday. Was damn sad also din haf anything to do. So I slacked arnd. Gar geoi managed to get his hands on some macs vouchers, so we were at the Macs at j8 eating. Me, geng rui, gar geoi, mingfang and liting. Xuan hong joined us later on there when he was with his class. Haha. And then it's like eat and eat lar. Aiyo... tsk tsk. Xuan hong go and dao his og in favor of his class... tsk tsk. Ahhaha. Oh wellz. Haha
And then umm...went back to Rj, spent the rest of the time playing cards before I finally went off to go for photography and then finally astronomy. Haha. I guess I'm damn no life lar. But oh wellz. Oh yeah. I finally got my deck of black tigers. And limen juz helped me get a deck of black vipers also. Haha. Rox man. Hahaha. Ok. Done. Haha
Anywayz, I've got a ton of hw, and no one can actually help me to finish it all. Haha. So I guess I'm on my own. Lolx. And it's like I seriously dunno what else I sld b doing with my life besides mugging. Abt 3 dayz or so ago, I had a purpose, and I had almost a life. Now I dun haf anything. No purpose, and no life. It's been a long road here to the bottom, and I guess it’s'time I started dragging myself out of it alridy. It's gg to b a hard climb, but I've had worse falls before. Haha. Oh wellz. Haha.yeh.so what? I do stuff which I think it's stupid. i still think i's more impt for us to b frens than to b anything else. Lolx. Hopefully all this will last. Otherwise, then move on with life I still say. The world moves on and we r standing still. Lolx.
Speaking of which. I think I've got no more life than an ant. Sch hols r coming soon.. I hope. Haha. And I dunno what else to say here anymore. It's been too long since I last blogged. Haha. and since u all will only see this post when diary-x finally comes back up, I wun haf to say tt I hope diary-x comes back online sooner. Haha
So apt this title. Wk of the crash. It's like been a crash in more ways than one for me. Mentally, emotionally, psychologically, even diary-x crashed. I guess u can't count what u dun haf. Ok. I shan't care abt this anymore. Life goes on. But I juz wanna turn back the hands of time. Haha
And another wk has gone by, with diary-x still being totally dead. Nuthin much which is rily very significant abt this wk. only I'm depressed. Very depressed. I dun find any joy in life. I think this world is juz a blardy damn sick place. With every1 being idiots and nuthin actually ever working. And why? Cos this world SUX!!! I hate all of it. Every single part of it. Blardy shit
This wk:
Ok. I think I'm regressing again... was damn depressed last yr abt this time also. Although it din last the entire yr… this looks like it might last the entire Jc... WHY!? Sometimes I juz hate myself. Isn't it all much better if u cld juz get away from here? And go somewhere else? Where every1 is always happy, u get whatever u want, and u dun haf to think abt any of this? YES. But it'll nvr happen. None of it will ever happen.
Faggot. And the stupid love songs on my mp3 player aren't working either. I used to b able to relax listening to them. Now listening to anything juz makes me pissed. Ever air supply. GODDAMNIT. Why can't I juz b myself?! Why can't everything juz go back to how it was? I WISH I NVR CAME TO JC. I WISH I CLD JUZ STAY IN RI FOREVER. FAGGOT. IT’S BETTER EVEN NOW THO IT'S IN RUINS. BLAST IT.
Ok. Calm. On a side note. Thanx enghui for listening to me complain at nite.. although I think u din rily haf much to listen to... not much sense in what I said either ways. Haha... oh wells. But I doubt u'd read this blog tho... u NVR read my blog one... haha. oh wells
On another note, which is hopefully happier, I asked Toon Wen to help me ask whether I cld get into first aid. Dunno if can or not... but oh wells. Nvm I guess. Haha. if can then gd. If cannot then too bad lor =D haha
Speaking of which, i also managed to get 2 more packs of cards, 1 black viper deck, and a ghost deck. thanx limenwei. haha
Ok. I think I gtg liao. Buhbyeez. Will blog abt tomorrow tomorrow... lolx. And this is still on MS WORD!?!!? What the hello lar?!
TODAY:
ok. nuthin much. woke up and carried out with my life, for most of the day at least. haha. budden then sth happened. nbm. we can talk abt tt later on. haha. anywayz, wad happened is this. talked to toon wen, and she told me she talked to the funny first aid guy alridty, said tt i can join, so i join liao lor. supposed to go down next wednesday. haha. since i now have 4 CCAs, and mebbe 5 if i decide to join HUan Yong's frisbee, i'm gg to think of dropping sth, mebbe astronomy. haha. but oh wells. tt's tt. i'll see how when the time comes. haha
ok. then umm... talked to zi lin, and she apparently went to my old blog or sth, cos she told me diary-x was dead forever. and it is. DIARY-x does not exist anymore, and neither does a lot of my most favorite posts, including my posts on Orientation Wk from this yr. Zzz... this sux lar. i can't believe it lor. but whatever. haha. at least i still have this damn old url on blogspot which is still here. haha. i doubt any1 will guess of where i've moved to lor. haha. oh wells
ok. i can't think of anything else to talk abt anymore. still quite traumatised by this whle exp but what the hell, it's all over, and there's nuthin else i can do anymore. haha. byebye diary-x. i'm sorrie u had to go, but oh wellx. nvm lar. haha
ok. and to sum it all off, i'm still outta sortas. been slping rily late, and little for the past wk, and i'm damn tired. shall go off and do sth unconstructive now. buhbyeez
5:38 pm
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FAGGOT
faggot. i HATE this. diary-x juz crashed, so hello blogspot.com again. haha. sigh. i think i'm damn damn damn sad now. my favorite posts were all on diary-x and now they r all gone, along with all my posts on orientation. ahha. nvm. now muz save archives alridy onto my com =D haha
4:41 pm
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Lyrics
Air Supply - All Out Of Love
I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong