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Sunday, January 21, 2007
LOL
it's late at nite. i feel alive. the first time i've felt lidat in a long time, n i'm bored. so yes. shall do sth i found on jian wei's blog. LOL
TEN EMOTIONS:
1. are you missing someone right now? yes. a lotta ppl but esp some1.
2. are you happy? no.
3. are you talking to anyone right now? msning zilin
4. are you bored? very
5. are you german? no
6. are you irish? no
7. are you french? screw the french. i hate them
8. are you italian? no to race. yes to food
9. are your parents still married? duh
10. do you like someone right now? YES
TEN FAVOURITES:
1. television: what's that?
2. flower: crysentemum *think i spelt it wrongly*
3. color: green black white. obv rite? my floorball stick isn't that colour for no reason?!
4. sport: FLOORBALL, soccer, table tennis, badminton (all in order of preference)
5. mall shopping centre: dunno what those are
6. band: AIR SUPPLY!!!
9. animal: dogs
10. state: gaseous. at least it's random
TEN FACTS:
1. hair color: black
2. phone color: black
3. car color: black
4. hair style: short
5. eye color: brown. i think
6. shoe size: 11
7. ring size: secret. only my gf/wife will know =P
8. skin color: yellow. no la no. i the first black chinese
9. available: depends. if chio, yes. if not so chio, mebbe no
10. lefty/righty: righty
TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LIFE:
1. have you ever been in love? yes
2. do you believe in love? yes. i'm a romantic
3. why did your past relationships fail? if i knew, i'd b married by now
4. have you ever been heartbroken? once. abt a yr ago
5. have you ever broken someone's heart? probably. wldn't noe
6. Have you ever fallen for one of your best friends? yar. sort of la. as in like best female friend. all my best friends usually guy
7. are you afraid of commitment? nope. dun tink so
9. has someone ever kissed your hand? IDIOT. GUYS KISS. not GIRLS. well... i dun mind tho. n ya jian wei, if u read this, i also realise. this a zabor quiz
10. have you ever had a secret admirer? dunno. it's like SECRET RITE?!
TEN THINGS - THIS OR THAT:
1. love or lust: love.
2. hard liquor or beer: hard liquor
3. night or day: night.
4. one night stands or relationships: relationships.
5. television or internet: internet
6. pepsi or coke: COKE
8. money or family: both'
9. phone or in person: in person.
10. msn or myspace: msn
TEN HAVE YOU EVERS:
1. have you ever been caught sneaking out? nvr sneaked out
3. Have you ever done something you regret? ya. lots
4. have you ever bungee jumped? nope
5. have you ever gone skydiving? nope
6. Have you ever finished an entire jaw breaker? NO
7. have you ever wanted someone so badly it hurt? YES
8. have you ever killed a man? in my dreams
9. have you ever danced in the rain? HELL NO
10. kissed someone in the rain? wish i haf
SHID> THIS SUX> JIAN WEI!!! All ur fault!!!!!
12:29 am
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Thursday, January 18, 2007
age
sometimes life seems so long. i dunno why
feel like a thousand years old right now. like seriously. i really dunno what's going on with me. somehow i juz feel like i'm getting older at like 5 times the usual rate. maybe it's not me getting older.
it's the spirit. if i had to make a guess, i'd say my spirit was abt 1000 yrs old rite now. i'm tired of life. tired of everything else out there. mebbe i've juz lost hope
what's hope anyway. always tot it's sth u use to make urself keep happy n looking fwd. now i'm not so sure. dun think i've ever had any hope anyway. life's juz a cycle. the only time u break out of it is when u die. not that i'm contemplating suicide. like my life too much rite now. at this moment at least. sigh
sometimes i juz wake up in the middle of the night and think abt all the ppl who've gone past. as in friends long lost, people i'll nvr see again, teachers n frenz who made my life happy n meaningful. nowadays, everything seems so preprogrammed. i go to sch cos i haf to study. sit with my class cos i'm in that class. talk with ppl cos they talk to me. like everything's so regimented. wth la. what happened to spontaneous jaqing arnd n all?! ugh
havent had a proper talk with a lotta ppl in a long time. thinking abt all the frenships lost n gone juz makes me sick sometimes.
we touch people only briefly in our lives. most of the time we are lonely. i think i believe those 2 sentences now. i'm living it.
10:42 pm
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Tuesday, January 16, 2007
age is catching up with me
lol. i dunno why.
i feel old. like really old. i think my life is juz like catching up with me or sth ><
anyway, went back to RI to eat on monday, cos the stall i luv with my life, n which i almost totally grew up eating came back to their new canteen. YAY!!! it's KAMPONGGGG!!! WHOO>>>
so happy. anyway, their standard hasn't changed a bit. quite surprisingly. haha
so happy abt that also. yay
been damn pissed with my sis, for various reasons i shall not go into. suffice to say that i'm pissed.
VERY pissed
enof abt that then
i went back to RI on mon, n i was talking to my juniors. suddenly realise how incredibly time seems to fly. juz a couple of yrs back, i was getting irritated by everything they did. now it's like kan kai le. ppl wanna b idiot, let them b idiots, as long as dussen affect me, i dun care liao. lol
speaking of which, i havent lost my temper at any1 in sch for a damn long time. YAY. which is gd. ren lau le. kan kai yi dian. lol. i feel like an old man
fine. this old man gg to nap. byebye
8:50 pm
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Sunday, January 14, 2007
ugh
i'm pissed. n my right hand still hurts like shit. friday was playing floorball, then i got wacked by tan chee ming's ball when i was blocking a shot. on my right hand. which now hurts like shid. nth's broken. i think the right word for it is sore. ya. it's juz damn frigging sore. gd thing is that i can't feel any pain right now. as in additional pain. so that's gd. yay
oh wells. shant talk abt friday floorball anymore. a bit screwed up n i not very happy abt sth. budden i also dun wanna talk abt it. so yeh. QED. end of story.
MT hse pt on friday. wonder whether i sld go n crash if no floorball this wk. hehe. oh wells. nvm. aiya. nth i writing here makes any sense. it's been raining for 2 days straight. which sux. i get damn irritated n angsty when it rains. dunno why alos. i juz guess it's cos the sky is gloomy so i also gloomy. budden i dun do anything much outdoors. dun play soccer anymore, so dun need the sun. floorball is indoors. so dussen matter if it rains. UGH. i JUZ. aiya fuggit la. i gif up. can b bothered liao. ZZZ
speaking of whcih. i finally caught up with all my hw. so yay. n tmr is gg to b antoher long day for me. same with tuesday. so not looking fwd. shall slp early tonite. fav pasttime now. slping. heck mugging. it can go n die. there's no more drive in me. i think i shall go off now.
another wklong absence from this blog. here i come! ^^ buhbyeez
3:01 pm
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Thursday, January 11, 2007
DID IT!
yesss. i'm finally free of my coke addiction. now only need to drink when i need a sudden giant transfusion of sugar into my bloodstream within a short amt of time. haha. it's like damn interesting. i wonder how that happened. but i juz suddenly stopped drinking.
speaking of which, i think i'm dying. havent been eating well, n once i eat, like today, feel hungry n hungrier n hungrier. wth. anyway, since lidat, then i might as well dun eat. which is gd. sinceb beginning of sch, i've lost like 4 kg alridy. n it's set to continue decreasing. i really like this thrend. if i can push my weight down to below 80kg, i might haf a chance at getting that silver for this yr's NAPFA. but haf to see first. guess i sldn't b overly ambitious. budden i think i not ambitious enof. hahahaa
anyway, fitter me = faster runner = better floorball. i think i'm improving, budden muz train more. so yay. hopefully we r gg to get a coach. muk's a decent person to tell u what's going wrong, in a game. sometimes. budden erm. i dun think he's eloquent enof. like usually, a few words says it all. like basics, dribbling, shoot earlier. that sorta thing. a bit the erm. undescriptive sometimes. yea. oh wellz
kk. shant say anything tmr got trg again. which rox. budden i'm gg to miss half of it, which sux. so shall juz play against teachers i guess. which rox. yup
k time to go. buhbyeez
10:12 pm
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Wednesday, January 10, 2007
CCA feste
i'm tired. like seriously very very tired. n i think i'm gg to die. like right now. both my legs hurt like man, i'm slpy, aching all over, dun feel like eating, attempting to replace sugar intake by drinking coke n feeling like i sld commit suicide. oh n to top it all off, i'm having a headache. YAY
but on the whole, today was a damn fun day. well mostly.
PE was madness. we got a new teacher. mr siva's taking us this time, really wished it was still seah. he's a damn nice teacher, budden i guess u can't hav everything in this world again. that means that all our pe teachers r new. cos goh's not taking us again. sigh. anyway anyway, the main point is taht we did sth like interval trg. i think that's what it's called. run 2 rnds for warm up, then 1 rnd, full speed. for me at least. rest for a while, then run again, then rest n run again. so altgr, i ran 5 rnds today. not very gd cos i'm damn tired n havent been running the whole of the holidays. man. really haf got to like buck up on physical trg. like seriously. i hate the army n i think it's a total waste of time. the army can sue me for this for all i care. not happy, put me in detention. i'm not gg to change my stand. but either way. it's lidis. i still think i sld like at least put in an effort to like attempt to get a gd NAPFA grade, even if it's only so that i'll b in the army for a shorter period of time. GOAL: 5 pull ups! here i come. whee!!!
ok. then was civics. haha. played some weird games where all the guys died except for me... not funny lor... sit there n like see every1 dying, then feel like super irritated... cos if u dun die, u wun b able to see who's the evil person, which sux cos i wanna noe! haha. but oh wellz. nvm
then bio lab. wasn't really paying attention cos i was still shagged. then spent the time after sch attemtping to find some1 to go out to eat lunch. cos the canteen was swarmed by j1s who had nth better to do than sit arnd n play cards. haha. lol. now i noe how the j2s felt last yr. budden not my fault lor. i din do that. wld sit at my og n play cards. hehe
anyway, then in the end din eat lunch at all cos they wanted to go to S11 to eat, then i lazy to walk so far. went back to hang at the floorball booth, n then got like quite a lotta ppl to like sign up for floorball, so quite happy la. cherie kept saying i was scaring them off, but that's proly cos she was talking to the girls n i was talking to the guys. n she was like using a different technique while i knew like well... half the guys who were signing up? haha. oh wellz
anyway, then talked to some of my juniors for a while, then went for floorball liaoz la. quite ok today. some trg. budden it was like in the amphitheatre, which isn't really a veri gd place cos of all the rough spots, budden guess at least there's trg! haha. so anyway, i did stupid stuff, ran abt n got myself damn tired. the last goal was damn stupid. slda stopped it. budden i was so damn tired my brain totally stopped working, n the ball juz rolled past. i was like brain dead, legs dead by 1/2. only my hands still working. ahahaha
then went back home. oh rite. i dunno whether i sld murder zilin la. i'm sure she go n tell my sis that she noes me. wth. oh wellz. nvm. it was bound to happen i guess. LOLAOZ. budden haix. nvm
tmr got sch again. i'm still damn shagged. think i shall go n get an early night. buhbyeez
8:17 pm
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Tuesday, January 09, 2007
lol
i came home n slpt for 2 hrs today. really damn tired. been burning myself out like mad for the past few days. Zzz. but that's now all over. so yay. quite happy. currently, i haven't touched a single computer game in like erm. 2 wks alridy. so yay! quite a gd track record. so yep. shall keep that up
oh oh n i havent handed anything in late yet, so shall attempt to keep that going this yr. haha
i hate GP this yr cos it's abt politics n i'm abt to hear stuff like u sld b a politician n all. at least i hope not. if my parents say that juz one more time or sth, i'm gg to like go on a rampage n kill them. politicians can go n die. (sorrie richard =P)
ahh wellz. n GP feels like this giant philosophy/ KI lesson thing, so i'm like getting deja-vu feelings everyday. SO WTH why can't it b sth else besides philo?! like i wanted to escape it? that's the reason why i dropped KI? yeh. amazing sometimes what happens when ur trying to get on with life
Zzz
ok tmr got floorball. so yay. shall go n slp early for trg tmr. havent been eating a lot. so as a consequence, amazingly, i've lost like 3 kg in less than erm. 3 days? 6 days? anything. whoever said that sweet drinks cause u to put on weight was disturbed.
talked to ame today. haha. she was like complaining. got 6 comps at home n all of them either cannot use or dun haf the programme she wants. makes u wonder why we hav comps in the first place.
i'm using my laptop nowadays btw. my old comp is too damn slow. everytime i use it, i feel like blowing it up.
ok. mugging time now. shall put my heart into it! go for As. YAY!!!
GG
btw, i think i shall like go hunt up some more alcohol bottles. going to b quite interesting when i see the looks on ppl like GG n liting's faces when they get what i'm preparing for their bdays this yr. hehe. mebbe shall gif to other ppl as well. dunno yet. shall see first... it's not everyday u turn 18 u noe?
time to go. byebye
7:15 pm
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Sunday, January 07, 2007
i'm only going to say
SOME1'S GOING TO PAY. LIKE IN BLOOD.
NONO. LEMME THINK THAT AGAIN. SOME1'S JUZ GOING TO DIE. IN PAIN
I WANT SOME1 IN PAIN
LIKE DIE. DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE
CRUCIFICATION WLD B GD
OR STH ELSE NICER LIKE WELL.. I DUNNO. WU MA FEN SHI? SI WU QUAN SHI?
I DUNNO. WHY ASK ME?!?!?!?!?! GO TO HELL
I WANT TO KILL SOMETHING
SOME1'S GOING TO DIE
GGGGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i juz realised how fun it is to b ranting on my blog again. sorta like moral uplifting. catarsis.
i miss lit. i miss history. i miss world war 2. almost wish there's b a world war 3 rite now.
yay for the atomic bomb n the nuclear weapons n anthrax n all
the world wld b such a nicer place if it's juz all GO AWAY!!!
YEA. GET LOST N DIE
DIE. IN. PAIN. bastards (or mebbe bastard/bitch/idiot/asshole/whatever else fits)
3:03 pm
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stuff
lol. this is like a little sth i got off huang lu's blog cos i'm damn bored n econs sux
HIGH 5
LEMME SAY IT AGAIN. ECONS SUX. esp when ur doing 2 essays n 3 outlines in 2 days. namely sat n sunday
ECONS SUX
ok. end of story. next
12:18 am
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Saturday, January 06, 2007
holy ****
2 econs essays. n 3 econs outlines. WTF
darkness falls. there is no hope in this world. die in vain. FOOLS
juz go n die
speaking of which, jian wei n i were talking abt random stuff ytd, n we suddenly realised how lucky i am that my name dussen start with f or h. go figure out urself why.
2:04 pm
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Friday, January 05, 2007
Wk 1 of sch
hmmz. wk 1 of sch was quite ok la. i guess. a lotta new stuff. new teachers n all la. budden nth much that i can really say. new gp teacher quite ok i guess, budden it's like i've been too tired to really notice anything or even care abt how nice or unnice new teacher really is. haha. tired ppl need to slp
ahhh wellz. anyway, i think i need another break, which is ironic since i juz had a giant holiday like juz abt last wk? lol
sigh. this yr's orientation isn't very nice, oh wellz. at least to me. budden doing first aid n looking at the j1s is quite ok i guess. i swear they r getting shorter every yr. haha
anyway, my sis is waking up later n later. which sux cos that means that i'm gg to sch later n later n later. SIGH. so it's like AIYA. dun care la
been talking to a lot of ppl who r ogls, which i guess quite normal. haha. since i keep on doing first aid. been talking a lot to k leong also. whee. so yeh
funny no one has changed at all over the holiday. i tot that most ppl wld haf like changed over the many days of the holiday, budden no one changes nowadays. oh wellz. nth i can really do. hahahahaha... life sux la. i think that sch is like damn difficult this yr. n damn stressful. even tho it's only the first wk of sch. hahaz
on a side note. yay. i scored a damn nice goal. thanx to this damn powerful nice placement shot from Boyle today. yay! against teachers team i think. or alumni. can't rmb. juz damn nice placement n everything, n like 98% tycho luck n 2% skill. so yay! haha. time to slp. nighty nights
9:57 pm
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Wednesday, January 03, 2007
day 1 of sch
ok. first things first. besides the fact that i dun haf my hols hw anymore, i feel sick. like very sick. i've been shitting like mad for the past 2 days, n the worst part is that it's not even shit. it's watery shit. thanx a lot. aka. i'm getting sick. again. i think. n i din slp the whole of last nite cos i kept waking up to go n shit. thanx a lot. gjgjgj
aside from that, today was a bit shitty. woke up with a headache. my sis dawdled going to sch. again. so i was stuck in a monumental traffic jam for like holy 20 minutes. aka. bad mood. which sucked. u'd think that'd u'd haf less prob gg to sch since now like same sch? but NO...
aside from that, the sch was damn crowded today. dunno y but it seems like this yr's j1 batch is gigantic. but that's proly juz an impression which i'm having. lol. so thanx a lot. then i think the medication i was taking made me feel damn damn damn damn slpy. so yea. nth i can do abt that tho. which sucked. happiness stuff. lee chai keow no longer teaching us GP. lagman left our class. nth much to say abt lagman. so too bad la. i think he's quite a gd econs tutor, but since he change then change lor. guess i'll juz haf to wait for the next teacher to see whether he was better or worse than her. lol
ok. erm. what else. so yea. most of the day spent slacking n all. which was bad. n then i was with mervin after sch. haha. mervin, jian wei n weiliang. speaking of which, i won my first bridge game of the yr. indication of things to come. quite wonderful to see i haven't lost my skillz, unlike my xbox skillz which were like totally gone the last time i tried. haha. but yea. guess i can't really say much la. after all it's like bridge nvr really leaves u. lol
so anyway, after sch, waited in sch for my sis to end, cos she din tell me she gotta go for og dinner. so i was like sitting n playing cards. haha. then talked to enghui n toonwen a bit, n cyrus, then went home. din go for physical. came home, took meds n fell aslp. again. wth la. i'm sure first day of sch n then lidis fall sick. bad omen. but wadeva
more bridging tmr! hallelujah!!!!!
8:11 pm
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