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Saturday, July 04, 2009
everything's fallen apart
actually i dont really know what to blog today. i'm tryin to hold everything together but i feel like the more i try the more i'm slipping off my fingertips
i argued with my parents again. i guess that there's no point tryin to hide it anymore. there's no way i'm going to b able to talk to them normally. not after what they did to me. not after all that shit. not with my heart and soul still in a million pieces.
its really a weird time to think abt all this. i mean c'mon it's the hols. but yeah things have a strange way of happening and i really guess that the hols r the only time when i'm 'free' to think about all this shit. so yeah.
i havent been really fair to many of my friends. but i guess that's the way i wanted stuff. when we were togehter, i was willing to give up everything i cld. but it was nvr enough. mb we just came from different backgrounds. mb we're just different ppl too different. i still think that we cld still b tgr. but u dont even wanna tlak to me. either way thanks for this lesson. i'm still weak. and i've only begun learning this lesson. i need to be stronger. i need to armour myself against everything adn anyone. cos the moment something slips through my defenses it's going to hurt me. so better to keep the world at bay than let someone come through. cos it's not worht the effort. i've been alone before. i'm always alone. mb that's just the way i'll die. alone as well but for the one in the deep regions of my heart.
i'm still praying for you btw. and for you as well. i hope you get well soon. i think that it's really unfair that you have to go thru this. i meant every word i said abt you being too nice to die early. i can't really justify why i'm praying to a god who let's this happen to you. but it's alright. you're going to pull thru this cos that's what i believe and i'll make sure you pull thru even if i have to pull you by the hair =) so yeah. be strong. i can't fight with you. but i can try to give you as much support as i can.
lols whatever. i'm emo tonight. nights
11:21 pm
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Lyrics
Air Supply - All Out Of Love
I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong