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Wednesday, October 22, 2008
fk
today i lost my temper.
i yelled at jabba when he came over n was an ass. i fked nivedh (not literally) when he was goading and being an all round ass as well.
i hate fking losing my temper.
i'm losing control of myself and its all because of u.
i think this is it. fk the fking tennis racket. fk everything. i dont care alr
time to concentrate on what i want now. sry girl. u dont belong anymore. so fk off and go away
nvr seen anyone who can ask me with a straight face how to do sth after telling me nvr to contact him again. now i know such people exist. and all this was without even an apology or like even caring abt anything else. just hi how to do this. do i look like a fking dog?
fk even a dog will fking bite the bastard/bitch's foot off and spit it out.
fk it all
2:29 pm
>>>Lost n still lookinG<<<
shit
i think jabba is influencing me manz. wth i've been spending a hell lotta time watching crowded hse music videos. sighhh... oh wells. they r gd anyway and its healthy. destressing ma. haha so yeah
dunno if i sld go for the stupid physio lecture l8r. i mean wth man. CA is coming, there's no physio in it and U WANT US TO BLOODY HELL STUDY PHYSIO?!
like HELLO???
lol nvm
damn stressed. during day cannot slp but wanna slp. at night wanna slp but cannot slp. lol
sigh
been thinking of someone and sth again HAHAHA only its a different sth n someone this time
n its probably my floorball stick. damn frightened all my skillz go to hell alr cos i changed blade and now i havent played for an entire wk. worried i can't shoot anymore :S
oh wells the stick is supposed to help me what... so hopefully yeah it'll be ok. sigh
hmm... argh STOP THINKING ABT IT LA KNN!!! this is totally stupid.
well stupider stuff have happened before. like someone still has my bloody tennis racquet and i kinda want it back so i can cut off all ties. but not going to ask. see how tmd some ppl can b. take stuff and dont return.
of cos if say u give me and then i dun return is yin gai. i'll b fking pissed. guess not everyone knows the difference between LEND and GIVE.
its all a point of view anyway so yeah.
sighhhh... feeling so lonely. which again brings to my mind the idea that we're always lonely and that we only touch people briefly in our lives. so too bad i guess. i'll always be lonely. guess that's probably better for the world tho. and for my sanity.
oh wells. time to continue thinking abt how to make my evil plan succeed and then RULE THE GALAXY!!!! muahaha ok mebbe not rule the galaxy. but yeah u know what i mean. definitely end up with sth gd =D
10:34 am
>>>Lost n still lookinG<<<
Friday, October 17, 2008
Ryan Cabrera - True
I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong with me
You might think I don't look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
I'm attached to you
I'm weak
It's true
Cause i'm afraid to know the answers
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster
I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak
It's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?
I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
I know when I go I'll be
On my way to you
The way that it's true
I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
shit can't get this song out of my head. spent 1hr humming it in bed last night when i was supposed to be attempting to slp >< tmd. oh wells. nvm. RAWRRRRRRR need to slp
9:24 am
>>>Lost n still lookinG<<<
Thursday, October 16, 2008
sian
bought a new blade for my floorball stick. some joker cracked it while i tackled him. i still dunno who and i dont really care. wanted to buy a new stick instead but since the blade was only $42, i guess the blade was kinda more worth it since my shaft still works fine.
dunno why i give a damn abt this la. fk. i still keep having periodic emo periods when it's all i can do not to think abt u. actually no. i can't stop thinking abt u. fk. time to focus on sth. floorball is a damn gd tranquilizer. when i play floorball, all i can think of is the ball, the fake, the shot, the pass, the tackle, the block.
well at least it keeps my mind healthy.
mebbe its time to start listening to more inspirational songs.
speaking of which i still havent found that cd album i heard on tv. can't rmb the name of it tho. too bad.
v sian of life la. is this all due to what happened? i dunno. sian of everything except floorball. mebbe i sld really marry my stick and live in bliss. tho it'll kinda b sad to have a wife that dussen talk, dussen react, u can't have sex with and who wont even help u clean the hse.. but well. at least she wont betray u.
fk la. dont even know why i'm typing all this shit when i cld b doing more productive stuff like studying, packing my bag or slping. but well.
TOO BAD THAT'S LIFE. NOT HAPPY JUST SHOVE IT UP UR ASS AND GO DIE N LEAVE ME ALONE!!!
fkers
11:00 pm
>>>Lost n still lookinG<<<
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
i will stand in the darkness and not be afraid.
if someone must walk the night, let that be me.
no longer will i try to walk in the light.
let this dark path be mine.
fk this world.
10:16 am
>>>Lost n still lookinG<<<
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Lyrics
Air Supply - All Out Of Love
I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong