sometimes i wanna scream
sometimes i wanna cry
sometimes i wonder what this life is all about
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
hell
i dont believe in fate, but if this is the way things are gonna be, ur gonna find urself getting more than u bargained for.
assholes. i tried my best n this shit still happened. wtf. i'm gonna hav my way if it's the last thing i do. u better go find some hole n hide ur sorry shitass. i'm gonna get u
11:04 pm >>>Lost n still lookinG<<<
Monday, August 20, 2007
some stuff
wanted to blog over the wkend but i was kinda lazy. so here i am today. when i'm supposed to b mugging, but too tired to mug n been doing that in sch anyway. lol
last friday was proly the best day in a damn long time that i actually felt like my old self and happy. was playing basketball with the peeps. wu han, pok, ee chong etc. lol. jabba is awesome IMBA. wtf. i'm sure he almost definitely will score once he's standing under the basket. WTH. anyway, yeh. quite fun. havent played like that since last yr when we were having GEP reunion n we were attemping to play soccer at the parade square n the ball kept flying over the railing. lol
k that's abt it. i've forgotten abt 80% of my h3 chem. happiness. so yup. shall go n attempt to recover what i've forgotten. somehow. tomorrow. one wk to h3 chem prelims. if i pass i'm going to go n celebrate. it'll b a goddamn miracle.
8:41 pm >>>Lost n still lookinG<<<
Sunday, August 12, 2007
random
it's arnd 5 in the afternoon but it feels like 12 midnight. havent been slping well again. fugging insomnia n what not. i seriously dunno how the hell i'm gonna b able to keep functioning on till A lvls. my brain still works, but at most only for like i dunno... 5 to 6 hrs a day, during which i mug like crazy n then fall aslp n die for the rest of the day.
been considering sedatives, but the fact is that the last time i took em, i died for the entire day. at least i can sustain for arnd like i dunno... 5 hrs each day?
quite productive so far. bio tys the mcq one is half done. chem arnd 4 to 5 chapters. maths havent really touched. econs been reading all my old notes n all. n so that's that i guess. lol nth else to talk abt.
the psc psychometric test was damn fugging dumb. i dunno whether i did well or not but i damn sure near fell aslp during the last section. finished with almost 10 minutes to spare. mebbe speed reading isnt such a gd thing after all.
granado espada is going to go for pay to play. so i dun hav a game to entertain myself anymore. probably a gd thing since that means i'll b able to focus on my studies. heh. n besides, i'll get arnd 90 days of free play which will b a gd thing. will use those days after my a lvls. it's a damn gd game. so i cant say that i'll definitely stop. but mebbe. lol
floorball last wk was damn memorable. but i really dunno how to describe it. wasnt thinking for much of the match. juz eyes on the ball n head entirely blank. well. yeah. at least we won i guess. havent scored goals in a long time. unsurprising since i'm playing defense almost all the time nowadays. sigh. gonna stop floorball soon also. still go down on fridays but mebbe i sld juz spend my time running for my health at home. lol
i wanna do sth fun. but fun's kinda off my list nowadays. so yeah. think i shall go n slp. or sth. catch up on what i've been missing for the past few days. jeez. the idea of a holiday is to slp. so u can recover for the days u spent mugging during normal sch days. oh wells
time to coon. nights
5:53 pm >>>Lost n still lookinG<<<
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
sth
lol sth i found on youtube
weird al yankovic roxors
WTH
11:04 pm >>>Lost n still lookinG<<<
Profile
Xavier
17 yrs old
12 April 1989
Rafflesian
Photography, Floorball, First Aid
Mugger
X-box-er
Mapler
Guitar player (lol... i juz started. and i suck)
Star Wars Fanatic
BLEACH watcher
Wishes
Get gd grades
Get a PDA handphone
Get a 98degrees album Find another hobby besides collecting first day covers PLAY XBOX!!!
Get more interesting cards decks
Get a nice handphone pouch for my handphone =D Get better earphones A new BAG!!!
A NEW PDA case!!! HAHA A new waterbottle. LOL
Random stuffs which are useful and do not remind me of studies i guess. haha
Someone and something
I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong