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Saturday, February 25, 2006
WK OF THE CRASH
2 Weeks ago:
Ok. Lolx. This was being done on MS word. Cos I cldn;t haf access to my beautiful blog which is currently down thanx to the noob server being destroyed. Lolx. Anywayz, this wk was seriously damn happening, and a lotta stuff I am proly gg to regret having done, happened. Lolx
Ok. Firstly, Monday was fun, and I dun rily rmb anything abt it. Lolx. Except I was like in a giant dilemma cos I cldn't decide whether to gif ppl stuff on Tuesday or not. Lolx. So I spent monday agonizing over stupid stuff and other assorted stupid stuff such as whether we were alive or dead alridy, and juz din know it. Stupid rite? Yeh. I know. Lolx
Then Tuesday came, and I still dunno y I did what I did on Tuesday, but it was proly thanx to some random inspiration which I suddenly had, which I din actually want. Which was bad. Lolx. But I shan't gif the details. Anywayz, for those who have been living at the bottom of a deep dark hole which u can't find a way out of, Tuesday was valentine's day, so yess... I did sth stupid along those lines... and I think I screwed up a lotta ppl. Esp some1. hello liting. Lolx. Ur name is here again. I dunno what ur name has to do with regards to this paragraph, but wadever. Lolx. I'm damn random, and frigging pissed off that the wk I feel like blogging a lot, diary-x has to go and down and die. And it's been for like 5 + dayz alridy. Feels like an eternity tho. Lolx
Wednesday came, and well... sorted out stuff on Tuesday nite alridy. Felt damn weird, but still... oh wellz. Haha. Anywayz, it's over and I wish ppl wld stop talking abt it. I juz wanna get on with life. Made a calculation error, and misjudged timing, so screwed up. Gd attempt for first attempt I guess, but I think I sld stick with gifing other ppl bad advice. Dun understand wad I'm writing? Think harder. This is supposed to b random and crap nubhead. Haha
Anywayz, I was supposed to spend the afternoon with limenwei. Haha. Had lunch with gar geoi, mingfang, liting and gengrui at comlumbariam. Haha. Oh wellz. Hahahaha. Anywayz, I dragged limenwei along with me, for the fun of it. Then went back to Rj. Was supposed to go for limenwei's ncc's training, for the fun of it, budden I got lazy, so I din go in the end. Hahaha spent the rest of the time in Rj playing cards with zilin and company. Haha. Sorrie lar. I'm seriously like damn bored nowadays lar. Haha. I mean I've got totally nuthin to do besides mug. I always thot tt jc was supposed to b damn fun, but it turns out tt I was wrong. Critically wrong. Haha. Ok. Nvm
Thursday... better liao. And din feel so weird anymore. Talked much more. But I still feel a little weird at times. Haha. Spent the rest of the day being stupid and slacking. Then played cards after sch again before finally gg home. Haha. Sorrie lar. I've got totally no life one. Haha. And then umm... I can't rmb anything else liao. Haha. But oh wellz. Hahahaha
Ok then finally, I think this is like the last of what I can think of to say liao. It's like Friday. Was damn sad also din haf anything to do. So I slacked arnd. Gar geoi managed to get his hands on some macs vouchers, so we were at the Macs at j8 eating. Me, geng rui, gar geoi, mingfang and liting. Xuan hong joined us later on there when he was with his class. Haha. And then it's like eat and eat lar. Aiyo... tsk tsk. Xuan hong go and dao his og in favor of his class... tsk tsk. Ahhaha. Oh wellz. Haha
And then umm...went back to Rj, spent the rest of the time playing cards before I finally went off to go for photography and then finally astronomy. Haha. I guess I'm damn no life lar. But oh wellz. Oh yeah. I finally got my deck of black tigers. And limen juz helped me get a deck of black vipers also. Haha. Rox man. Hahaha. Ok. Done. Haha
Anywayz, I've got a ton of hw, and no one can actually help me to finish it all. Haha. So I guess I'm on my own. Lolx. And it's like I seriously dunno what else I sld b doing with my life besides mugging. Abt 3 dayz or so ago, I had a purpose, and I had almost a life. Now I dun haf anything. No purpose, and no life. It's been a long road here to the bottom, and I guess it’s'time I started dragging myself out of it alridy. It's gg to b a hard climb, but I've had worse falls before. Haha. Oh wellz. Haha.yeh.so what? I do stuff which I think it's stupid. i still think i's more impt for us to b frens than to b anything else. Lolx. Hopefully all this will last. Otherwise, then move on with life I still say. The world moves on and we r standing still. Lolx.
Speaking of which. I think I've got no more life than an ant. Sch hols r coming soon.. I hope. Haha. And I dunno what else to say here anymore. It's been too long since I last blogged. Haha. and since u all will only see this post when diary-x finally comes back up, I wun haf to say tt I hope diary-x comes back online sooner. Haha
So apt this title. Wk of the crash. It's like been a crash in more ways than one for me. Mentally, emotionally, psychologically, even diary-x crashed. I guess u can't count what u dun haf. Ok. I shan't care abt this anymore. Life goes on. But I juz wanna turn back the hands of time. Haha
And another wk has gone by, with diary-x still being totally dead. Nuthin much which is rily very significant abt this wk. only I'm depressed. Very depressed. I dun find any joy in life. I think this world is juz a blardy damn sick place. With every1 being idiots and nuthin actually ever working. And why? Cos this world SUX!!! I hate all of it. Every single part of it. Blardy shit
This wk:
Ok. I think I'm regressing again... was damn depressed last yr abt this time also. Although it din last the entire yr… this looks like it might last the entire Jc... WHY!? Sometimes I juz hate myself. Isn't it all much better if u cld juz get away from here? And go somewhere else? Where every1 is always happy, u get whatever u want, and u dun haf to think abt any of this? YES. But it'll nvr happen. None of it will ever happen.
Faggot. And the stupid love songs on my mp3 player aren't working either. I used to b able to relax listening to them. Now listening to anything juz makes me pissed. Ever air supply. GODDAMNIT. Why can't I juz b myself?! Why can't everything juz go back to how it was? I WISH I NVR CAME TO JC. I WISH I CLD JUZ STAY IN RI FOREVER. FAGGOT. IT’S BETTER EVEN NOW THO IT'S IN RUINS. BLAST IT.
Ok. Calm. On a side note. Thanx enghui for listening to me complain at nite.. although I think u din rily haf much to listen to... not much sense in what I said either ways. Haha... oh wells. But I doubt u'd read this blog tho... u NVR read my blog one... haha. oh wells
On another note, which is hopefully happier, I asked Toon Wen to help me ask whether I cld get into first aid. Dunno if can or not... but oh wells. Nvm I guess. Haha. if can then gd. If cannot then too bad lor =D haha
Speaking of which, i also managed to get 2 more packs of cards, 1 black viper deck, and a ghost deck. thanx limenwei. haha
Ok. I think I gtg liao. Buhbyeez. Will blog abt tomorrow tomorrow... lolx. And this is still on MS WORD!?!!? What the hello lar?!
TODAY:
ok. nuthin much. woke up and carried out with my life, for most of the day at least. haha. budden then sth happened. nbm. we can talk abt tt later on. haha. anywayz, wad happened is this. talked to toon wen, and she told me she talked to the funny first aid guy alridty, said tt i can join, so i join liao lor. supposed to go down next wednesday. haha. since i now have 4 CCAs, and mebbe 5 if i decide to join HUan Yong's frisbee, i'm gg to think of dropping sth, mebbe astronomy. haha. but oh wells. tt's tt. i'll see how when the time comes. haha
ok. then umm... talked to zi lin, and she apparently went to my old blog or sth, cos she told me diary-x was dead forever. and it is. DIARY-x does not exist anymore, and neither does a lot of my most favorite posts, including my posts on Orientation Wk from this yr. Zzz... this sux lar. i can't believe it lor. but whatever. haha. at least i still have this damn old url on blogspot which is still here. haha. i doubt any1 will guess of where i've moved to lor. haha. oh wells
ok. i can't think of anything else to talk abt anymore. still quite traumatised by this whle exp but what the hell, it's all over, and there's nuthin else i can do anymore. haha. byebye diary-x. i'm sorrie u had to go, but oh wellx. nvm lar. haha
ok. and to sum it all off, i'm still outta sortas. been slping rily late, and little for the past wk, and i'm damn tired. shall go off and do sth unconstructive now. buhbyeez
5:38 pm
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Lyrics
Air Supply - All Out Of Love
I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
