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sometimes i wanna scream
sometimes i wanna cry
sometimes i wonder what this life is all about
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
YAWN
sigh. today was damn boring. din do nuthin much of importance. did some sch hw, and then stoned for almost the rest of the day. i'm still feeling a little tired from photog camp, what else did u expect? i slpt for like less than 5 hrs lor. haha. and then i din rily slp very early last nite lor. haha. oh wellz
anywayz, i fell aslp while reading at like 6, and woke up at 730. had been tryin for the entire day to maple, but i juz failed miserably, cos i cldn't make the patch start. apparently, there's some weird error with the patch, causing every1 to b unable to dl it. haha. hopefully it'll b ok tomorrow alridy, otherwise i'm seriously gg to attempt to kill myself. haa. oh wellz
sigh. now blogging, i've been thinking abt my life so far. haha
say whatever u like lar... i seriously think that Rjc sux. in terms of the way everything is being put tgr. liked Ri much better. esp all the half days and full days off. ok. mebbe not tt much, considering that from what i've heard, bob koh is cutting down on all that by a lot. hha. but oh wellz. haha. oh yeh. and they dun haf I-learning. anymore. haha. too bad:P haha
sighhh... been seriously thinking abt a lotta stuff lately. haha. and none of it is rily helping my mental health rite now. i think i'm stressing myself out over stuff which aren't very impt anymore. haha. like stop thinking abt it cos ur wasting unnecessary brain power. use it on studies man! but it's nvr gg to happen. everytime i close, my eyes, i'll think abt it and feel all crapped up all over it again, which sux, even worse. haha. oh wellz
hmm... sometimes i juz wish i cld b like most other ppl... and block out stuff which u dun wanna rmb... or juz like keep ur brain shut up and quiet instead of hafing to b thinking abt stuff all the time. SIGHHH... why the hell can't i juz forget abt it? i can't u know... it'll stay with me until the end of my life... or at least for hte next 13 yrs, cos i can still rmb damn impt events and even some unimportant events in my life from when i was only 3, haha. so therefore, i am teh destroyed. haha. oh wellz
sighhhh... sld i haf done tt? sld i haf like gone on with my life and lived a lie/hidden life? i dunno. i'll nvr find out rite now anymore i guess. and everyday i think abt it, the more regrets i get. i think i now know why it is tt ppl actually attempt to commit suicide, but oh wellz. i'm not gg to b doing tt no matter how much u may or may not want me to do tt. haha
SIGH
i juz wanna forget everything
bring me back to those carefree days of secondary sch, when i wanted to think abt, and all i needed to think abt was sch work. haha.
sigh
i think i'm being damn random rite now. haha. mostly i think bcos i hafn't had any1 to talk to on msn the entire day, and no com games to play, adn mostly nuthin much to do the entire day. haha. so here i am, slacking and thinking of some more stuff ot talk abt
hoping that some ppl will come online so i can talk to. but oh wellz. tt's nvr gg to happen. i proly sldn't burden more ppl with the sad fate that i haf. haha. ok. i shall stop blogging anymore. shall go and destroy myself somewhere else. buhbyeez
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Xavier
17 yrs old
12 April 1989
Rafflesian
Photography, Floorball, First Aid
Mugger
X-box-er
Mapler
Guitar player (lol... i juz started. and i suck)
Star Wars Fanatic
BLEACH watcher
Wishes
Get gd grades
Get a PDA handphone
Get a 98degrees album
Find another hobby besides collecting first day covers
PLAY XBOX!!!
Get more interesting cards decks
Get a nice handphone pouch for my handphone =D
Get better earphones
A new BAG!!!
A NEW PDA case!!! HAHA
A new waterbottle. LOL
Random stuffs which are useful and do not remind me of studies i guess. haha
Someone and something
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Lyrics
Air Supply - All Out Of Love
I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong