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Sunday, April 30, 2006
lol
so looking back on ytd, ytd morning wasn't rily tt bad. well compared to the rest of ytd, and this morning. i dunno why i'm blogging in the early morning, but i suppose it's mostly cos i'm bored. to death. and there's absolutely nuthin else to do besides mug, which i'm not rily cut out for doing at this beautiful moment in my life. smell the sarcasm.
(shrug) so anywayz, ytd the entire day was basically wasted on doing random stuff like playing maple, doing hw and even worse, attempting to edit my photos. i think i finally managed ot get the basic idea of editing photos. but it's still damn hard, and i think i shall do some funky stuff to them. it's taking longer than it sld, but i can't help it. sld ask qing xiang for some help i think. haha
hmm... i suspect that i pissed some1 off with my slowness last nite, which isn't rily my fault since my brain was totally dead after staring at photos for like 3 hrs straight and not being able to think abt anything at all... besides how screwed up spending a grand total of 12 hrs plus on editing them is. so yeh. sorry again, and lol... dun try to deny it. i know how ppl type on msn, and when u take abt 5 minutes to type out a 4 sentence reply, it speaks of either ur comp hung, ur pissed, or ur tryin to think of an evil reply which isn't as evil as u want it to be. since the reply was neither the first nor the last, it's proly the second. i think explaining my logic is a waste of time, but tt's what i wanna do rite now, which is waste as much time as possible. haha
ok lar. and then uh... woke up this morning with the blardy stupid headache. and i've been thinking abt last nite. quite weird for someone to say that i'm some joker and that i joke too much in sch or on msn. not sure which, i'm still attempting to work that part out. from memory btw since i dun haf msgplus anymore *i miss it like siao. but too bad. messenger beta is more pro* lol. i admit i crap a lot on msn, but i rarely crap in sch, esp since i haven't been talking to this person for like uh... 3 to 4 to 5 wks. pick any of those numbers. i'm too lazy to think abt which one is correct, n i seriously dun think that too much thinking right now wld b gd for me, what with all the headaches and all lol
ok lar. so that's that. i'll think abt it juz as soon as this stupid headache goes away.
sld proly get back to mugging... but i think it's juz gg to piss me off.... everything's been pissing me off lately. even slping pisses me off completely. i think it's more irritation than pissing me off, budden again i guess that i can't rily tell which is which at this moment, sou draw ur own conclusions. it's not my prob.
so far as i can tell, not enof ppl that i know are gg for the chorale concert. i need at least 20 ppl to go with me, since i dun rily like chorale and in the first lace, i dun rily gif much of a damn abt them. sorrie geng rui n gergab and well... any1 else who reads this blog and is from chorale. aha. i've developed an absolute phobia for accapella musix and even worse, i've got an absolute phoba for chorale music. so yeh. sorrie bros. no can do. unless u somehow manage to persuade 20+ ppl to go with me for the concert... or i get a free tix, in whcih case i'll proly manage to go for it. haha.
ok lar. i think the headache's beginning to go away. i think that mebbe blogging helps to make al the emotional pain, psychological pain and what else go away faster. which is proly gd lar. haha. and yeh. tomorrow/tonight's post more reflections on why i'm so screwed up. i think i rily sld take advantage of this momentary flashes of epihany b4 they all go away. buhbyeez
11:42 am
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Saturday, April 29, 2006
F*** life. F*** everything. i WANNA die
i think this post is seriously gg to b damn sad and depressing. dun ask me y, cos i dunno y also.
my tagboard crashed abt a wk or so ago. all the posts disappeared. then when i was attempting to save my posts, i realised the entire code went haywire when i was copying it, so bombed. cannot use anymore. can proly find the proper code from my saved template, but i'm too blardy lazy. so shall put tt off for like a while, at least until the June hols i guess. no mood to edit template rite now
this wk has mostly been one disaster after another. i dun even noe why, but yeh. tt's juz the way it is. been raining for like a lot this entire wk, and i dun even feel like talking abt it. sure. i guess rain's nice in this weird way. no PE(which is bad since i'm enjoying PE lessons this yr) no morning assembly (so stay at z'cove and stone for a little longer, which is seriously very boring). fag everything to do with life lar. i've been attempting to edit my youth avenue photos, but suddenly realise that they all suck. i think i sld ask qing xiang for some help in taking a look at them. my camera was quite screwed up when i was taking them, so yeh. fagg it all lar.
i think the only rily brite spot of me entire wk was FA. Cyruz got to b chairman. i think Indra wld have been a better choice, since i trust him much more than i trust cyrus to do work, but at least Indra's in the whole thing, so shan't say anything bad abt Cyrus here. so yeh. FA meeting was quite nice, and i heard some interesting stuff abt the meeting as a whole, like how cyrus farted or sth. i dunno. quite funny. ashvin was telling me abt it the next day. haha.
spent the time after FA talking to enghui. she was attempting to prepare for her mentoring, and kept on talking abt talking. i was like hur hur? and then found out she was talking to herself -.- and it was raining quite heavily so yeh. then went to wait for 410, and then found out to my shock that when we finally got a taxi to get to BPS where i wld walk home and she wld go for her mentoring, that 410 was rite behind -.-"
i think enghui is damn funny and a bit screwed up sometimes, but nvm. and since i'm quite sure she dussen read my blog, i can say all this. muahahaha. and well.. i'm still attempting to get onto her list of jerks and superficial ppl, which i'm supposedly still off. dunno how tt's possible, but yeh. whatever.
ugh. thursday and friday wer e like screwed up days. ytd was nice. din get into photog exco, not that i even expected to get in. was alridy laffing hysterically when i found out there were ppl who nominated me to run for exco. lol. and i din even gif my nomination speech, which isn't surprising since i was at youth avenue. so yeh. too bad lar. luckz to the exco this yr, even tho i'm quite sure only one of u has my blog url. hahahahaha
ok lar. what's next? oh yeh. i gaf charissa a lift home ytd also. since it was like gg to rain. dunno why i did tt for jumpy little girl, but nvm. i think she's the same height as my sister, horror of horrors. haha. i juz realised i've blogged abt enghui and FA club meeting twice alridy. but yeh. whatever. too damn fagging depressed to go back and delete it.
i'm staring at my stuff right now and wondering why the hell i even have to start studying. i seriously need some incentive rite now.
i think i shall spam hate mail.
i hate this world, and i hate all this apathy (quote from adam's blog. i think i read this some time ago) more quotes from adam. i HATE YOU for being SO STUPID!!! lol
oh yeh. i spent most of this wk with yiwen during lunch times, since it's like og no one wants to go for lunch anymore. too few ppl. so yeh. quite ok lar. but i guess i need to find more things to do with my life. was helping her to look for sth for her brudder. i think i was more of a hinderance, so yeh. need to start thinking abt ppl's bday prezzies alridy. esp some1's bday which is coming up in June. and this some1 arr... keeps on asking me what i want for my bday which is over, and i like tell her, anything, then she say until i tell her what, then she wun buy. LOL
i think i'm super random. and feeling damn crap today. need to get over this depression. Cyrus thinks i'm being super hypocritical putting on a happy face for this world to see. but so what? this is how i work, and too bad. u want to see depression? stupid idiot.
ugh. i think my blog is becoming more depressed as the days go by. sorta like the stuff i keep telling wanchee n enghui not to do, since they r the owners of the only 2 blogs which are depressing lotsa times. oh yeh. the F*** is not a vulgarity in case u were wondering. it's FRAG.and yes. i feel like fragging everything rite now.
i need to destress. i need top play Xbox. my wife has been like sitting there for a mth or so, untouched by human hands. ok. i think abt 1 term or so alridy. Zzz. can't rmb who said i was married to my Xbox. i think it was wanchee or sth. haha.
missing some1 seems too hard, not missing some1 seems even harder. it's always lidis. and we can't turn back.
dunno what that line was for, but yeh. whatever.
and NO! i'm not gg for CO or chorale concert. CO nvr. chorale, only if my entire og goes, aka more than 30% of ppl go. sorrie lor. i juz dun wanna go and see toh ban seng conduct. very stupid and irritating. so all the chorale ppl who read my blog, SHOO!!! go work my my og first. same for all the CO ppl. GIF UP~!!!!!
ok. i think tt's all the angst i can come up with today. at least for the moment. shall attempt more tonite. buhbyeez
11:27 am
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Wednesday, April 26, 2006
WHee
yay. i luv PE nowadays. all we do is floorball and even more floorball. damn exciting lor. haha. and i luv it. floorball is like my newest sport this yr, and i think it's damn fun lar. haha. so yeh/ played floorball today for PE and it's like damn fun. i finally managed to score a goal today, according to afzhal and indra. it's like i passed the ball in to either Paul or Marcus. then one of the defenders stopped the ball, but it continued to roll it, under Naeem's legs and into the goal. i dunno. i think it was an own goal, but they sld know better since they were like there lar. so ok lor. haha
i think i do more exercise then i'm playing floorball, cos i like push myself a lot to grab the ball and get it outta the area. so yeh. haha. which is gd i guess. after i joined floorball this yr, i managed to pass 2.4. dunno if floorball sld take all the credit, but no doubting that it did me quite a lotta gd this yr. have to maintain it tho, and go for more gymming on wkends. haha
no og lunch again, cos only me and gar geoi and liting free to go for lunch. then it's like a bit too few lar. so cancelled. went with yiwen and gar geoi instead. haha. then it started raining when we were coming back to Rj. haha. i think was damn farnie lar. yiwen was like saing it wldn't rain, then suddenly started to pou. then i was like 'u were saying? =P'
then first aid. din get into the exco, not that i ever even thot that i had a chance, but yeh. haha. then it's like uh... was doing work after first aid. and watching enghui cutting her triangles for her mentoring CIp. then it was raining damn heavily outside. then she like looked up and said. eh. not raining anymore rite? then i like pointed out the window and grinned. haha. i think she's damn freaky lar. kept on talking to herself while working, then when i asked her wazzup? then she said talking to herself -.-" haha
was gg to take 410 back home instead of cab, but enghui said sld take cab. cos she's gg to bishan park secondary to gif her mentoring CIP. then like get onto the cab, look behind, and 410 was there -.-" haha. lol. i think damn farnie. but yeh. haha
anywayz, back home now, andi got a ton of hw to do, so i shall go and get started. buhbyeez
5:33 pm
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Monday, April 24, 2006
Long time no blog
lol. realised it's been quite a long time since i last blogged. actually, 4 days alridy. so i'll catch up rite now. haha
Friday... sch was rather boring. then econs lecture test. ok lar. but i think i din do well again. haha. then Youth Avenue was fun to cover. take a lotta photos and all. and see the ppl coming in from all over. so ok lar. but a bit tiring. went to SparkC and Cheryl Neoh was there as part of the programme, so i hung with her grp. better than hanging with a couple of ppl i dunno lor. hogged her camp bag on the bus to use to slp. haha
i think SparkC is better than the OBS at Tekong. but then again, not rily i guess. it's got better facilities, but it's also a bit smaller... and there's no canoeing. i think. ahhaanywayz, the activities they had were very fun. rily quite nice to see ppl from all over S'pore, poly, JC and ITE all bonding tgr. haha. quite cool. but i'm digressing
met ZiYing i think. quite a wonder that everytime i meet some1 new, they all seem to come from 3Q. haha. but then again, i guess i take more notice, since i was from tt class last time? haha. oh wellz.
gave her a lift to Raffles City since there's almost like totally no transport from SparkC. at least according to my dad. but welll... dun rily agree with him, but it's up to him i guess. haha. my parents were doing weird stuff in the car, but tt's their problem. i think my parents are weird bordering on insane. haha
ok. so that ended Friday. which ended at abt 6 to 7. haha
Saturday, woke up early and went to SparkC to take more photos. haha. and then it's like quite fun also. and i saw some weird stuf, which i shan't describe here. haha. then back to Rj, and then more photo taking. btu not rily a lot then, cos i wanted to do hw and it's like nuthin very exciting to take photos of also lor. haha. Kin Wai was there alrso, so we spent the time photoging and he was filming. haha. LOL
then uh... break. and i spent it drinking coke and root beer. sorrie lor. was damn tired. haha. and Mei Fen and Shu ZHang were getting me to go and help them hang their poster for CO. sigh. i think Mei fen is damn freaky, but nvm. shall ignore. haha. horror of horrors lar. no one told me thaman was gg down. and no one told me that there wld b nite photography. so it's like i was taking photos and all... but then it's like totally outta the blue... so i was unprepared. wld haf asked some1 else to go down as well with me, if i had known... sigh
anywayz the performances were gd. and i think the photos not very bad lar. and then it's like i was taking photos of the bands. and i got my eardrums blasted out by some band. i think it's alled westend bolevard. yeh. altho it may b difficult to imagine, i dunno who they are. ok? i only listen to oldies. still stuck in the 1980s. happY?
anywayz, i went deaf. and then i went home ot slp.
sunday was ok lar. a bit boring, but at least i had time to catch up on hw and other assorted stuff. and then there also was the uh.. PI which i hadn't done, and mugging for various stuff. i think yeh. tt's all alridy
today, chem SPA. wasn' as hard as i thot it wld b... but then again, not as ez as i hoped it'd b also. haha. floorball match btn BW and MR for 3rd 4th placing cancelled... or rather, postponed, cos MR din haf enof ppl for a team. haha. so afterthe 5th 6th placing match, we had free for all. haha. qutie nice. and i ran a lot. so quite fun lar. i think floorball is like the best sport i've ever played b4 lar. with the possible exception of table tennis. haha
ok lar. now it's like 8 something alriudy, and i've spent abt 1/2 an hr writing all this. now very tired, and i shall go and slp. byebye
8:26 pm
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Thursday, April 20, 2006
LOL
so i got home ytd and thot, it'd be gd to like get myself drunk in celebration of the first time in my life that i managed to pass a running test. so i like went to get some wine, and drank. usually got np. but i think i drank a little too much. ok. a lot too much. so i died. as in badly this morning. woke up with a headache. i dun think got bloodshot eyes, but i'm not very sure. haha...
felt perfectly miserable the entire day, and the only bright spot was that i cldn't feel any worse. got better later on, and i dun rily rmb what happened b4 tt. hhaa.
spent lunch time talking to richard abt maplestory -.-" haha. damn lifeless. wanted to talk to more ppl, but no kick and too tired, so i went for econs. spent after sch mugging with yiwen. haha. damn nice mugging with her, altho it's like interaction lvl quite low. haha. but i suppose at least i managed to get stuff done. instead of usually where interaction lvl high, but work rate, DEAD. hahahahaha
ok lar. tomorrow got econs test. better go and mug. buhbyeez
9:29 pm
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Wednesday, April 19, 2006
I AM HAPPYYYYY
YAY! i finally passed 2.4 today!!! whee. and not pass as in like barely pass. it was like a D grade lar. i'm currently still like OMGBBQWTH!? i'm sure lor. haha. but yeh. i passed and kissed the track. haha. damn fagging happy. haha.
so yeh. but i was like damn freaking tired out for the rest of the day. but i guess worthy exchange. less energy for a gd 2.4 timing. haha. i like =D
okey lar. i can't rily think of what else happened. guitar concert was nice, but a little weird, having nuthin else but juz guitars strumming and all... weird. but nice. haha. okey. i shall go and slp alridy. buhbyeez
11:28 pm
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Tuesday, April 18, 2006
life and everything nice
yawn. todayt sucked badly. died for NAPFA again, well nuthin new there, esp with pull ups and all... but sigh. i hoped to pass shuttle run... which i almost did. got 11.1 when i was supposed to get 10.9. oh wellz. at least got hope i guess. haha
died for broad jump and for pull ups, as i expected. did 45 for sit-ups and quite ok for sit-n-reach so ok lar. hopefully i'll do well for 2.4 tomorrow and pass? haha. but i dun rily feel like running... cos it's like i'm gg to haf to retake the entrie test anyway. well... we'll see. haha
nuthin much else happened today. i guess. haa. but was damn gloomy during bio pract.. cos of the rain i guess. it was like raining damn heavily, and i felt damn sad all of a sudden. oh wellz. can't help it lar. i guess. rainy days always make me damn sad and depressed. sigh. haha
cos of the rain, i spent almost 3 hrs in sch playing cards. haha. LOL. i think i am damn lifeless, but then again, card gaming is fun.haha. lol no one in my class got into council lar. damn sad. haha. but oh wellz. dussen rily matter i guess. haha
hmmzzzz... feeling gloomy all of a sudden again but sigh. i dun rily care abt it lar. been brooding abt it long enof, i think it's time to let go? which will nvr happen, but whatever. life sux. and everything else rox. haha
talked to Xy today. haha. i miss the fun times we had last yr insulting each other for the simple fun of it. haha. sigh. haf to move on with life alridy i guess. i think sometimes i juz wish i was still in Ri, sigh nvm. life moves on, but we are still standing still...
ok lar. i think i shall zao alridy. dunno what else to talk abt tonite. tomorrow got 2.4 today's 5 stations was screwed up and my entire body has a total lack of energy rite now... shall slp early. buhbyeez
8:28 pm
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Monday, April 17, 2006
TIREDDDDD
lol. today was damn freaking tiring lar. i slpt damn late. talking to venetia and therefore, slp late. haha. LOL. hopefully no one interesting comes online tonite, then i wun slp so late? haha. dunno. lol
lotsa stuff due tomorrow, and i dun feel like handing in a single one of them. haha. i'm damn freaking tired of Rj life, and all the politics and stuff lidat. i dun even swear rite now when i feel pissed. blardy hell. sometimes being nice is taking up more energy than it's worth it. and no one rily bothers, so i guess it dussen rily matter. haha
Beta's been telling me lotsa interesting pts abt life in Rj and everywhere else in general. but i dun think i shall put them here, since it's like i'm too blardy tired and i can't rily rmb what he said exactly. juz like the general stuff? haha. and yes. i'm too lazy to write them here. u can come and find me if u wanna noe more, but i proly wun say nuthin, esp considering the type of ppl who frequent my blog. either losers, or nice ppl to whom this has totally nuthin to do with them. haha
had floorbal today. well not BW match today, but i went down to play and slack arnd. was playing cards b4 tt with minghui, zilin, alwyn and kenny. well technically, only twds the end then kenny was playing with us. same for K Leong also. haha
oh yEH! omg i feel damn happy rite now. i finally got my floorball stick!!! muahahahahah! and it looks damn frigging nice. hahahaha. whee. been waiting for it for like damn long. and it had it's maiden match today. haha. which was quite screwed up. mixed team VS J2s. haha. and we were like down 4 goals, then bennette tong suddenly go and score 4 goals in succession. haha. then they scored 2 more goals when we weren't looking, and alert. which was ok i guess. haha. but yeh. damn fun. and i cldn't slack off cos no subs. haha
ok lar. i think better go and mug alridy. b4 anything else happens. today was also voting for the council. haha. WONG WANCHEE! u better thank me ok? i helped u get another vote from my classmate who has totally no idea who u are! haha. better buy me lunch at least. haha. jkjkjk.
ok. i think i shall zao liao. buhbyeez
8:23 pm
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Sunday, April 16, 2006
SIGH
today was quite a bad day lar... as in nuthin much was done. and i still have got like a ton of hw unfinished. ok. woke up late... nuthin unusual there, and i was sneezing and sneezing and sneezing away constantly. cldn't stop it at all... and my nose kept on running. LOL
worse than all that. i felt bad.. and my chest was cold. i think i caught a fever last nite. aha. but sigh. nvm lar. i guess. it's over alridy, and i'm feeling better now. slightly at least. haha
went to wistma atria for dinner. haha. the food was quite nice, but i dun rily recall anything anymore...
played maplestory for most of the day, and lol. i din do anything else... cos my mind juz cldn't take it... sorrie lor. it's like my mind cldn't do anything intellectual the entire day lar. the best i cld do was like uh... attempt to 'mug' chemistry and other assorted stuff. haha
oh wellz. ok. i think i shall go and slp alridy. damn damn damn tired, and i hope kartik has finally replied me on whether there's any floorball match tomorrow. otherwise i'm gg to b coming home early to slp i guess. and some1 out there, by the name of venetia lee is daoing me on msn. blardy hell. i think i shall murder u tomorrow morning in sch. muahahahaha. ok. i think i shall zao alridy. buhbyeez
9:43 pm
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Saturday, April 15, 2006
Some totally random stuff
Came across this on Gerard's blog. so i thot i'd do it also. been quite a long time since i did a crappy survey, and definitely not since i moved back to blogspot. it's days lidis that i miss diary-x until i wanna cry. it's definitely much easier to blog and attach stuff on diary-x than it is on blogspot. and at least u dun haf to keep scrolling down and down and down there, unlike here. gg to haf to work ok koping some gd linker or sth so tt i can like show only 1 post per page instead of hundreds, but i'll haf to see.
What type of Fae are you?LOL. dussen sound very nice the survey answer i guess. haha. but i agree with almost everything in there except for mebbe the trivial part. haha. and dussen rily matter much. got the same thing as gergab btw. haha. which i think is nuthin much. and i sld proly link im rite now since i've been putting it off for like i dunno... wks/ mths? haha. LOL only thing abt this survey is tt i can't put down crappy comments and answers... since it's like this stupid MCQ thingy? haha. oh wellz. can't haf everything i guess. haha.
hmm... i mapled last nite, but i think i gotta improve my psychomotor, since i keep on letting stuff which r damn ez to avoid frag me. haha. but yeh. dussen matter eventually, juz takes a little longer to lvl up than for other ppl.
miss my Xbox loads, but haf to make sure i dun start playing it now, otherwise i wun be able to stop, and that wld b bad... very very very bad... haha. cos i'd be obsessd with playing which wld end with me dying worse for my studies than i alridy am. haha
some stuff to do if i'm ever free... update my poems and proly my el portfolio. ok. mebbe juz the poems, i got absolutely nth to update my el portfolio with. haha. no matter what i said to martin the other day, i have been writing a little, but not the sort i'll ever confess to ppl of having written. mostly angsty rubbish which i dun wanna care abt. but i'll proly put them up, if i'm ever awake enof to do it.
been mugging chem the entire morning. i sld pay more attention to my econs. i think it's suffering quite a bit since i haven't rily been putting much effort into it. been concentrating more on my chem and bio. haha. so yeh. haf to start mugging econs properly as well. haha. and there's a lecture test next wk! omg. haha
oh waiut. here's another survey from the same webbie. haha. LOL. i think this webbie is like seriously damn funky lar. haha
Find your Celestial Choiri think this one not very correct, but different ppl see me differently, so not my problem i guess. but the answers were seriously damn funky. shall go and see what happens if i put all the ad stuff down. hehe
Find your Celestial Choiranywayz, i thot i'd try the other answer which i'd put when i'm angry, or tired or well... what i'd proly do the other 50% of the time, and i got sth damn funky, which sounds more like me. haha. damn weird. that i think both will like fit me or sth. haha. but yeh. LOL
ok. enog laming and enof blogging abt surveys which dun haf anything to do with nth. ok. shall go and continue mugging. buhbyeez
12:05 pm
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Friday, April 14, 2006
yawn
gd friday isn't as gd as i thot it wld be. i mean it's like a day when i dun haf to go to sch, dun haf to go anywhere... and can slp... and slp... and SLP. hafn't been slping well for some time alridy, so i was rily looking fwd to today to slp in as late as possible. and what happened? i din slp late at all... and woke up damn early. haha
then uh... left the hse. i still can't believe it, but i actually did it. i went out with my parents to shop. and ended up at funan looking at all the Xbox 360s and drooling and wishing i had one of my own as well. haha. but sigh. i'll proly nvr be able to get one, at least until i actually manage to save enof to get one of my own i guess. haha. i think the graphics are seriously damn gd lar. but whatever...
and my xbox has becom damn devaluated lar... i was like staring at a poster which was saying that they wld gif u an Xbox for $1 if u bought a laptop... and i'm like the wth? i mean like why the hell so low? blardy...
only gd thing is tt at least i can trade in my xbox for like uh... $155 or sth lidat lar. which is gd, but alridy still damn devaluated lar... i bought the entire set for like uh... $400 lidat? and i can't even trade in my controllers, and it's like i got no one to sell it to... actually can sell them to limen, but i bet i wun be able to get a gd price for them lor. mebbe i sld juz gif them away. haha
ok lar. nuthin much else to say, except that i went out for a gd dinner today... cos it's like i din celebrate my bday on wed? damn bz lor. and i went home quite late. haha. oh i think i forgot to blog abt this the other day
wed was like the day of interviews. had a giant bunch of them. but after them all... i went home by 410 and i saw enghui taking it back to Rj for her first aid interview. then i think i freaked her out by saying tt i juz saw her. cos she was like rily? 00 oh... ok... in tt damn shocked voice. haha. then it's like she was at some block near my estate teaching some poor kid. haha. i hope it's not a guy she's teaching. and even worse. i hope it's not a cute little boy. otherwise i bet she'll paedo him... then the poor boy will be like traumatised. hehe. =P and u din buy me a prezzie lor!!! haiyo... i think i shan't buy u a prezzie for ur bday anymore. muahaha. lol. jk lar. haha. i'll still buy u a prezzie. i'm nice lor. unlike u. tsk tsk. haha
ok lar. and then i think nuthin much alridy. i spent the rest of today like slping. and slacking. haha. ok. i shall go offline. buhbyeez
11:13 pm
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Thursday, April 13, 2006
lalalala
and i juz can't take all the boredom in sch anymore. feel like sch is getting more and more painful as the days go by. sigh. haha. oh wellz. i dunno lar. but yeh. it's juz like getting longer, and harder to drag myself to sch nowadays. i think it's juz like cos it's the mid-yr and all lar. ahha. hopefully at least. haha
yawns. i've been slping damn late nowadays. but yeh. whatever, too much coke i guess. haha. but w/o coke, cannot stay awake in lectures, then die. haha
i think bio lectures rite now are like seriously damn boring lar. cos they r like long and on DNA, which is sth which i think i've been doing for like uh... 4 yrs? ok add this to it, and it's 5 yrs. haha. lol. too bad lar. i gues.s haha. haf to do it all over again. AGAIN. LOL
first aid today was like crap. i think sometimes, first aid is like one of the most useless stuff arnd lar., cos nuthin happened that needed our attention, but at least we were there in the event that something did happen i guess. ahha. oh wellz. LOL. hmm...
yawn. damn frigging tired rite now. and like my entire day has juz been burnt, since i juz got home like abt 1/2 and hr ago or sth. hjaha. ok. i think it was actually abt 2 hrs ago, but it's right now feels like only 1/2 an hr ago. haha. i shall go and slp alridy. buhbyeez
9:43 pm
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Wednesday, April 12, 2006
HAPPY bDAY... to meeeeee
yawn. today was nice i think. haha. only thing is tt some1 took the trouble to traumatise me first thing in the morning. for the sake of every1's eyes and all, i shall not divulge tt person's name. haha. LOL
ok lar. og was fun this morning. sang bday song, then lawry gaf me the stuff which he bought for me on behalf of og. haah. lectures r nvr gg to b the same with my multi-purpose pillow! =D can slp on it, and can even use it to hit ppl. haha. so this is like damn gd. only prob is tt it's kinda big, and teachers r proly gg to b able to spot it from damn far away. oh wellz. haha
then uh... nuthin much lar. every1 in my class was taking turns to wish my happy bday cos they juz only realised tt today's my bday. haha. tsk tsk. damn sad lor. some PPL out there arr... know me for so long and dun even realise today's my bday... rite FAII? tsk tsk. okok. i shan't say anymore, cos i always forget when ur bday is, esp since it's so damn freaking early in the entire yr. haha
yee sian freaked me out today. he did this totally random thing during lunch. i type out arr. haha
*walks up to me with a giant package*
Yee Sian: Xava! this is urs. (passes giant packaget to me. ok. it's not rily tt big. haha)
ME: oh thanx. uh... from u arr? (i think so lar. can't rily rmb what i said here. i think i was in shock. haha)
Yee Sian: eh! dun open it arr! otherwise u'll break some1's heart. muz wait until 7 days from now!!!
ME: (thinks) OMFGBBQKNNBCJBNBAFUF *ok. tt wasn't rily what i was thinking back then, but it seems nicer than what i was thinking which was basically a lotta random thots like who the hell is this mystery person and wishing a thousand bad stuff on him/her)
(ahem) according to my deduction, the mystery person cannot be from my current class, cos no one in my current class knew tt it's my bday today. haha. and it can't be any1 from photog or first aid or floorball. haha. and the handwriting is a little too neat to be from a guy, unless he's some pro like ZY or XY which is quite weird. but anything's possible. so, tt being done, i'm down to only like abt uh... 50 possibilities and all... which isn't rily a lot. got some other clues, but i'll do the handwriting analysis tomorrow nite. damn tired rite now. haha. LOL
ok. like i said, nuthin else alridy. shall go and slp. buhbyeez
10:18 pm
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Tuesday, April 11, 2006
just close ur eyes, and u be here with me
yawn. i was damn tired in sch today, haha. budden again i'm always tired on mondays and tuesdays for some weird reason. sad that the sch wk has juz started i guess. haha. but oh wellz. no choice i guess. we all have to go to sch, unless u wanna pon sch like some ppl arnd, then i got nuthin to say to u. haha
oh yeh. sorrie i forgot to say happy bday to u zheng. haha. i think i'm damn forgetful alr. juz put down a reminder to wish u happy bday today, then i went and forgot to wish u. Zzz. i think i'm getting damn old. haha
then uh... oh yeh,. thanx for the card yiwen! haha. yeh. i miss china loads as well. i think the trip rocked. haha. and i think i look damn crap in the card as well. haha. but yeh. it's still all the memories, esp of all the times i was happily corrupting u to the mahjong side of the force. haha =P haha. but yeh. wish we were all back there and carefree and happy. mebbe an outing for china trippers? haha. i dunno. but every1 seems to be like super bz nowadays. oh wellz. nvm lar. haha
tdoday was a total waste of time. stayed back to chat, and ended up helping lawrence, leonard and kartik with their campaign posters. and stuff lidat. haha. today was also campaign speeches. nt as painful as the ones which we used to hear in Ri, but i think they were still quite painful, esp the first one where there was singing. OUCH. haha
okay lar. i shall go off and do work alridy. buhbyeez
7:08 pm
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Monday, April 10, 2006
u took me right, out of the blue
ytd was bad. cos i din do much, and slacked quite a lot, and i was super tired from all the stuff i did on saturday. haha. today was no better, but at least it was a lot less boring. haha.
ytd, went to mandai crematorium to visit my great grandmother and then did a lotta stuff. but i think i'm gg to haf problem, cos of all the dust and smoke. i'm slightly allergic to smoke and dust, so like today, my entire throat feels weird and my nose has been runny the entire day. sigh
i think this is seriously gg to b a damn long wk, even tho it's technically only 3 days long. haha. tomorrow, i dismiss late at 2, then wednesday, i got 2 interviews in a row... first photog, then first aid interviews... sigh
then thursday, i gotta leave sch to cover some sports match. sigh. i think i'm seriously gg to bomb on thursday lar. oh wellz. friday is gg to b a holiday again, but i suspect that it's not gg to b as nice as we all think it's gg to be... sigh
okey lar... wednesday is my bday. happy bday to me. and happy bday to zheng i think ur bday on thursday rite? haha. happy bday boyoz. haha
ok. i think i shall go and slp alridy. buhbyeez
9:30 pm
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Saturday, April 08, 2006
ORA walkaton & Opening Ceremony & Raffles Trail
ok. so today was some man waste of time, for the most part i guess. and i seriously wasted like a hell lotta time, but i feel gd abt wasting so much time tho. haha.
so anywayz, went to sch at like what the hell? 7 this morning, where we had this uber big first aid briefing. i think the T'shirt which they gaf us looks damn cool. much nicer than the ones which the participants had. but yeh. haha. then uh... i slacked arnd for like god knows how long b4 i finally left sch with my 2 station masters who's station i was covering for first aid and photography. LOL. haha. what were their names? uh... Nadjad and Shiyun i think. haha. sorrie lor. i suck at names. haha
spent most of the time waiting to leave sch crapping with enghui and toon wen. haha. cos every1 else left rather early. haha. i think enghui sometimes a bit slow rxn. haha. i took like abt 3 photos of her b4 she finally realised i was taking. haha. or mebbe she cldn't b bothered. dunno lar. haha. LOL. but anywayz, i won our bet last nite, abt the part where u cldn't duck and all... haha. so YEH! i WON. but i dun get anything... hmmz. oh wellz. nvm lar. haha
then left and went to toa payoh HDB hub, where we spent abt 1/2 and hr looking for the place. haha. and then it was like we got chased outta the nice airconned place which we found. haha. quite sad but whatever i guess. haha. then we went on to some other place which was hotter and all. haha
then most of the time, there weren't many grps, i had like finally worked the courage to start on my hw when there was like this giant influx of grps, and then no more rest. since there were like only 2 station masters, and they hadto be with the grps during the tasks, i was like alone there and had to like entertain the grps coming and answer their qns. haha. ok lor. whatever
then like no more time to mug, so damn tired in the end. and i almost din sit for most of the times lar. haha. so sad... then like uh... oh wait. now i rmb... LENA -.-
i'm gg to kill u lar... u go there then shout my name so loudly... then u start poking me lor... ouch. still damn painful rite now... haha. and then like scream and scream and scream again. haha. i think nadjad was like 0.0 whenu were doing tt lor. damn shocking. haha
i hope my hp dussen get spammed tonite, cos like a lotta ppl had to guess my hp number as part of the task, and so abt half the ppl who went ot the station had to guess my number, which currently also means that a lotta ppl have my hp number, which also means that i am proly gg to die. haha
i passed most of the time sms-ing toon wen. wanted to sms other ppl also, but no one else's number i know from first aid, besides hers and enghui's and well... eng always takes forever to reply sms-es. haha. still rmb this uber long one which i think took her like 3 days to reply or sth. haha.
ok lar. then went back to Rj and then started to cover for the prize presentation for the raffles trail. but i din manage to take many photos, cos the thing ended by the time i went up. spent too much time talking to cynthia whom we met on the way back to Rj and all. haha. oh and eating, since i was like super hungry at tt time. hhaa
what else? i think nuthin alridy. spentthe rst of the time either laming and playing cards, or juz plain slacking. yeh. haha. and now i am super tired and i shall go and slp or do sth less draining. buhbyeez
8:19 pm
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Friday, April 07, 2006
I swear, by the moon and the stars in the sky, i'll be there.
today was nice. i think i'm freaking myself out a little bit, i've been like some sorta semi-fitness freak for the past few wks. like everytime PE lesson, quite enthu and all... haha. lol
today was damn nice. i hope tt my stamina has rily actually gotten better, but u nvr know, i'll juz haf to see how i do during the test itself lar. haha. but yeh. like i'm telling enghui rite now. i've been pushing myself quite a lot in recent wks, and i hope it actually yields results, but i can't exactly be sure. haha well, we'll juz haf to see i guess. haha
oh yeh. i managed to hunt down mr tan and ordered my floorball stick today alridy. got the longer one for myself. haha. i hope it'll be worth it, which i think it is. haha
shid. i can't rily rmb what else happened. went for og lunch today, and i found out they had gone to the columbariam in the end, cos some1 *tsk tsk liting arr tsk tsk* forgot to tell me/call me. haha. nvm lar. i shan't be so petty. haha
og lunch was fun, altho there were like only 4 ppl there, but yeh. then went back to Rj, and i slacked arnd a little b4 gg for first aid meeting. haha. i think it was damn farnie, btu yeh. whatever. haha. i dun rily wanna talk abt it lar. then after first aid, i was at the amphi crapping with enghui and toon wen. haha. funny how many ppl i actually know in Rj, both my reputation and personally, but yeh. i guess bound to happen, esp since all of the Ri cohort is literally in Rj ritenow. haha
someone has ben tormenting me in class, but i dun wanna talk abt it rite now. haha. cos i'm talking on msn, and quite bz. and i gotta pack my stuff for tomorrow, so i shall blog abt it tomorrow. buhbyeez
10:12 pm
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Thursday, April 06, 2006
juz another day in LA...
ok. it's s'pore, but i dun think we sld change tt line. cos it's from a song, which sounds nice, altho the name of tt song currently eludes me. i think this is what happens to ppl who dun slp enof. they begin to forget stuff. haha
sigh. and i suddenly realise i'm not gg to get anything this yr anymore. as in i'm too poor to get anything. my bank is gg to b empty tomorrow, over expended myself. saving for Xbox 360, then spent it all on my MP3 player, not to mention my Razr X. haha. then umm... holy of holies. haha. i also had to go and like umm... buy a floorball stick. ok. it's gg to buy, not had to buy, since i'm only gg to make the payment tomorrow. and no. my bank account is not literally empty, but i overspent this yr alridy. i think this yr is like the single worst yr of my life in terms of accounting. haha
my XBOX 360! i MISS U, and i still can't have u... blardy hell... it's like i can't go to funan nowadays, cos i'll feel damn fagged everytime i see an Xbox 360. seriously i think the Xbox 360 is like the most beautiful thing out there. issit too much to ask? yes. but can i ask for it? YESSSSSSS!!! I wANTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT... sigh
some other stuff is rily eating away at me right now, but i think tt i shall like go and think abt it another day, or rather, blog abt it another day, since i got quite a lotta stuff to blog abt today. haha. mebbe tomorrow. when i got less stuff? i dunno... hha
this is gg to be seriously damn random today, but whatever i guess. i dun rily care, and i'm quite past the stage of caring alridy.
yay my bday is coming! so happy. haha. doubt any1 will be buying my presents this yr tho. haha. and my parents r saying tt they alridy gaf me my present a couple of wks ago, which was the MP3 player. haha. but oh wellz. nvm lar. haha
anywayz, in case u all wanted to know, i dun rily care what u all gif me. as long as it isn't food, and it isn't coke. plz lar. those stuff i'd rather buy, can control my intake. unlike if u all gif, then i'll die. haha. if ur rily desperate for ideas, go to my wish list here on my blog, altho i can't see why u all sld bother to buy anything for me, since i proly wun be able to get u all anything for ur bdays. gg to b too poor. haha but we'll see... kept aside some $$ for some ppl's bday alridy tho. haha. lemme see.. some of the china trippers whom i'm close to (read btn the lines. haha) some ppl from my class, og? nah. then proly one or 2 other ppl from arnd. haha
talked to limen on the way home today. or rather, on the way to TTSH to meet up with my parents. haha. we had a damn long discussion, which i'm supposed to finish rite now. haha. so i shall bounce to it. buhbyeez
8:58 pm
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Wednesday, April 05, 2006
i believe in angels, when i know the time is right for me
and another day juz passed lidat. i can't believe it, but it's true
ok. what did i do today? nuthin much. i got my split spades deck today. and viola is still continuing to freak me out as much as possible. which is bad. i'm seriously considering joining adam in the semitary right now. if he goes tt is. haha. oh wellz
hmmz. i can't believe it lar. but i went ot the gym today. was totalyl bored after sch today, and i decided to go there in the end. haha. with yee sian. then spent the time after tt slping or playing cards. haha. both lar. haha
ok. i think i am gg to ache like siao tomorrow, but since i still haf a lotta hw to do, and other assorted stuff, i think i better start on them.
on a side note, i met up with mr tan today, and i am gg to b buying the floorball stick this friday. haha. WHEE ! =D
ok. gtg now. byebye
8:31 pm
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Tuesday, April 04, 2006
and i would haf liked to haf known u, but i was juz a kid
Yawn. today was quite boring and exciting at te same time, but i think i shall start with last nite. haha.
ok. talked to umm... Kaye last nite. after finally obtaining her msn addy from a very indirect source and then umm... waiting for her to finally come online? haha. LOL then umm... finally got the truth of the weird stuff which she asked me last wk. hmmz... apparently i muz haf not changed a lot froasked her to come for og in the morning and then like lemme go and like looka t the photo she has. haha. i dun haf any photos from back then anymore. haha. too bad. haha
sigh. ok tt's abt tt. next
today, nuthin much in sch, but was feeling damn tired, and my leg cramped in the middle of last nite for totally no reason at all... =S i think i'm infected with limenitis. haha
ok. nvm. anywayz, i think i might be able to pass 2.4 this yr. hopefully tt is. and once i pass tt, i might also be able to pass shuttle run, which makes me having to concentrate on only 2 stations, pull-ups and umm... board jump. haha. but i think if i actually manage to pass 2.4 this yr, it's gg to b like some sort of giant achievement. for me at least. haha
oh yeh. which reminds me. naeem and a ber got their floorball sticks this morning. haha. and they r damn cool! =D i think i'mm gg to getone of my own as well alridy. haha. they rock. and since i'm definitely gg to stay in recre floorball for at least this yr, and proly until the end of next yr, if it lasts until then, then obv i better go and get a gd stick. haha
ok lar. i'll go and see what i can do. for now, gtg mug. buhbyeez
8:24 pm
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Monday, April 03, 2006
close ur eyes, i want to ride the skies in my sweet dreams
whee. today was damn fun. haha
nuthin much. had this damn funny weird arguement with mei fen during recess, for no reason tt i can rmb. except tt she accused me of being gay with zihan, which is impossible cos firstly, i'm not gay, and even if i were gay, i'd choose some1 shuai-er than zihan. haha. anywayz, i shan't say anything else bad abt her anymore. muahahahaha
bio test was gd. i think. i hope i did well for it. i think mugging does haf it's advantages. haha. but aiya. hope and hoping lar. i dunno if i rily did well in the end or not. haha
tmr's the funky council results. i hope i got in. but then on another hand, i hope i din get in. i dunno. but we'll see lar. hope and see lor. haha
hmmz. i can't htink of anything else. oh yeh. played against the J2 all stars team for recre floorball today. needless to say, we got owned. badly. well... nto rily lar. we got a margin of 4-2 which is quite gd i think. haha. but iay.a whatever. haha. i think we played rily swell today, of cos got quite a lotta stuff to brush up on, but still quite gd lar. and indra was some ownage today. scored both our goals. but i think in the end, it's more tt they were better than us, so we lost lar. too bad lor. haha
ok. i think i shall get back to chatting. will blog tomorrow. hopefully. buhbyeez
9:04 pm
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Sunday, April 02, 2006
dun luv for fun girl, lemme b the one girl, luv me for a reason, let the reason b luv
again. there is totally nuthin to do with my title with anything to do with me, or tt is relevant in anyway. juz in case u were hoping for another lovey dovey post (which i've nvr put up) and got disappointed.
yawn. spent the entire goddamn frigging day mugging bio. and mugging bio and mugging bio. i think i am damn lifeless, but it took like a hell long tiem also lor. ZZZ. anywayz, i din manage to go online to lvl up my mage. which is proly the worst thing tt has happened to me today, since i was rily looking fwd to lvl-ing up my mage today. haha
sigh. i think sundays r again bcoming boring. no one to talk to. and ppl whom i actually attempt to talk to dao me. hello lena. dunno if u daoed me or juz din reply tho. haha.
anywayz, bio sux. and adam's asking me on how to do it rite now. hello adam. what a surprise. Zzz. ok. nvm. i dunno what tt has to do with anything. Zzz
i'm still in luv. with the XBOX 360. i currently have a poster of it hanging on my wall. and i'm drooling over it the entire day. my parents stand is if. IF i get 4 As this yr for promos, they'll attempt to buy it for me. of cos my current prospects r like bleak. so as gd as nvr buying it for me sonny boy. LOL
ok. i think i shall go and stare at my XBox 360 poster. and since my bday is coming, u all know what to buy for me, but u all proly dun haf enof $$, so nvm i guess. haha
ok. buhbyeez
9:16 pm
>>>Lost n still lookinG<<<
Dun go breaking my heart
lol. disclaimer : the title of this post has nuthin whatsoever to do with how i'm feeling rite now, or to do with anything to do with me or the content of this post. so if u wanna read some juicy luv life gossip or sth, now is the time for u to start looking for an alternative blog to read.
shid. forgot to go and post last nite. i think i was too tired and mushed to update lar. nuthin much to talk abt ytd anywayz, mostly juz mugged for bio test tomorrow. sigh. i dun even know why i take so much effort to go and mug. i bet i'm gg to die tomorrow. but whatever. i guess juz keep at it and hope for the best yeh? lol
ok. lemme try to rmb what happened ytd despite this total cloud in my mind. nuthin much i guess. mugged and then spent a lot of time on msn crapping. crapped with Beta and Tony. yo manz. haha. thanx for listening to me crap. lol. ok. actually quite ok lar. esp since some1 dussen haf a frigging bio test to mug for? =P
hehe. ok. what else. oh yeh. i uh... played maplestory. haha. din manage to lvl up my mage tho. which sux. and i was seriously contemplating deleting my warrior ytd. but oh wellz. nvm lar. i think i'll do tt during the june hols if i haf time, or some other day. hmmph. mebbe i'll juz start a new account lor. after all, i juz rily wanna try out thief. haha
my mage is soon gg to b some uber ownage crap, despite richard telling me tt i screwed up the lvl-ing up. haha. too bad lor. i'll get on with life and juz play for fun lar. but my warrior has some prob. keeps on hafing problems with the weapons, cos his lvl is like too low to use some of the weapons. hmmz. oh wellz. nvm
oh yeh. i went running ytd. din feel very tired even tho i knew i was running like uber faster than my usual pace. hmm... does tt mean tt my fitness is better than last time? hope so. but i can't go running today lor. cos like haf to recover b4 tomorrow. tomorrow is the last match of floorball against the J2 team. haf to b fit otherwise wait tomorrow cannot play cos aching all over. then sad lor. haha. ah well. nvm. stil haf got another wk at least b4 NAPFA. hopefully, i'll pass, then i wun haf ot think abt 2.4 anymore. i think. haha. then i'll be able to concentrate on attempting to pass broad jump and uh... pull-ups =S haha
i think my mugging plans r gg up in smoke, mostly bcos no one is able to go and mug with me on the days that i'm free, or i haf stuff like og lunch and al which r taking up my times. lol. aiya... stop complaining. no one ask me to take up 3 CCAs what. haha. but aiya. nvm i guess. at least i'm enjoying myself in my CCAs. which is what matters more than whether i haf enof time to slack i guess. and at least i'm still able to finish up all of my work, which is the msot impt part of the whole deal i guess. haha
tomorrow is gg to b a damn bz day for me i think. so better go and getdone with mugging, b4 i go out. 10 more days to my bday hint hint. and i think some1 owes me a present. issit? i dunno. not very sure. haha. nvm i shall work on the assumption tt no one owes me anything. haha
oh yeh. i alsmost forgot. i wanted to blog abt blogsurfing. esp reading some1's blog lor. aiyo... everytime i go to ur blog arr... enghui... i get a heart attack lor. haha. i think damn farnie. haha. and u can still come up to me and tell me on msn tt u think i get a heart attack from reading ur blog. rily heart attack siah. haha...
ok. i think i shall go off and start mugging alridy. will blog later today is i've got anything interesting, otherwise then tomorrow after the match VS J2s then. buhbyeez
10:04 am
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Saturday, April 01, 2006
a one in a million
ok. i think from tomorrow onwards, i'm gg to use the titles of songs to put onto my titles. or mebbe the chorus or nice phrases. i duno. i'll think abt it tomorrow. or rather, later today. but whatever i guess. haha
anyway, this is what else happened. today. went to sch, and all. and i think i was feeling damn outta place today. for absolutely no reason at all. i suddenly felt damn self-conscious and all. for no reason again. sigh. ok. nvm. whatever. i think i juz dun wanna think abt some stuff rite now. but staying up late dussen exactly help any of tt lar. sigh. i juz wanna stop thinking abt it. alridy more than 1 and a 1/2 mths alridy. why can't i juz pick up and move on?
i think mebbe when sth bad happens, and u rily feel damn disappointed and hurt, everything juz sorta freezes. and worst thing is tt every1 else has to juz go and rub it in. they may not do it consciously, but some of them do it and it hurts. every single goddamn time.
but i'm sidetracking. lemme get back. i went on to do usual stuff, and then no og lunch. liting now has classes until 3. xuan hong daos us all the time, so ignored muahahaha. then yee sian now has chinese until 330 or sth. so next person. GG today can make it, but no one else gg. so og lunch cancelled. so i din go out with my class for lunch, thinking they were gg to haf lunch, until the last moment lor. Zzz. whatever.
haix. then i spent the next 5 hrs doing absolutely nuthin at all. Zzz. i think i sld haf found sth to do lar. but i cldn't think of anything to do. sigh. BUT whatever. hai. and i din go for the H3 talk. i hope yiwen's fren managed to help me get the stuff. i had to go for photog early lar. otherwise then die lor. haha. and today was like. ugh. i dun wanna think abt it
ok. this is how things stand rite now. i'm running for council. and besides tt, i am also running for photography EXco, first aid exco. i think i am gg to kill myself. and the worst thing abt all of it is tt i feel guilty abt gg to haf to drop sth in the end cos i can't haf all 3. this sux
anyway, some1 out there daoed me the whole of today. i'm not gg to name names, but if u read this post. then HI! lol. ok. get on with life. next
anywayz, i still feel quite sad abt all this stuff lar. wld anything haf been different? wld i haf gotten on with my life? i some times juz wish stuff had turned out differently for me. i juz wish i had like this damn gd timemachine. go back and undo the past, but everything has to go on. sigh
the world turns but we are standing still. i think i'm making myself feel miserable, but i guess i can't help it.
ok. anyway, after photog, i saw alan ling in the canteen. haha. he looks quite different, and i'm still kinda in shock tt he can't do a single pullup. but i guess i sldn't be the one to say anythign lor. haha. better start doing trg today alridy. haha
went out to watch ice age 2. i think the movie rox. but i drank too much coke, which is preventing me from slping, which is causing me to think of stuff. which is bad
oh yeh. speaking of which. i almost forgot. after alan left, and we were still playing cards, kawaii asked me abt stuff. yeh. for those who know what it is, gd. it's mostly abt personal stuff. relational stuff and all. in front of ahem lemme see... cheryl neoh, juee and wenxin. lol. i think i better start preparing to pretend to b offline, juz in case, ok. u din see anything. (jedi mind trick)
i think i shall go and slp alrid. today has been a damn llong and sa dday, and i dun rily wanna think abt it anymore. ok. buhbyeez
12:14 am
>>>Lost n still lookinG<<<
