Saturday, April 29, 2006

F*** life. F*** everything. i WANNA die

i think this post is seriously gg to b damn sad and depressing. dun ask me y, cos i dunno y also.

my tagboard crashed abt a wk or so ago. all the posts disappeared. then when i was attempting to save my posts, i realised the entire code went haywire when i was copying it, so bombed. cannot use anymore. can proly find the proper code from my saved template, but i'm too blardy lazy. so shall put tt off for like a while, at least until the June hols i guess. no mood to edit template rite now

this wk has mostly been one disaster after another. i dun even noe why, but yeh. tt's juz the way it is. been raining for like a lot this entire wk, and i dun even feel like talking abt it. sure. i guess rain's nice in this weird way. no PE(which is bad since i'm enjoying PE lessons this yr) no morning assembly (so stay at z'cove and stone for a little longer, which is seriously very boring). fag everything to do with life lar. i've been attempting to edit my youth avenue photos, but suddenly realise that they all suck. i think i sld ask qing xiang for some help in taking a look at them. my camera was quite screwed up when i was taking them, so yeh. fagg it all lar.

i think the only rily brite spot of me entire wk was FA. Cyruz got to b chairman. i think Indra wld have been a better choice, since i trust him much more than i trust cyrus to do work, but at least Indra's in the whole thing, so shan't say anything bad abt Cyrus here. so yeh. FA meeting was quite nice, and i heard some interesting stuff abt the meeting as a whole, like how cyrus farted or sth. i dunno. quite funny. ashvin was telling me abt it the next day. haha.

spent the time after FA talking to enghui. she was attempting to prepare for her mentoring, and kept on talking abt talking. i was like hur hur? and then found out she was talking to herself -.- and it was raining quite heavily so yeh. then went to wait for 410, and then found out to my shock that when we finally got a taxi to get to BPS where i wld walk home and she wld go for her mentoring, that 410 was rite behind -.-"

i think enghui is damn funny and a bit screwed up sometimes, but nvm. and since i'm quite sure she dussen read my blog, i can say all this. muahahaha. and well.. i'm still attempting to get onto her list of jerks and superficial ppl, which i'm supposedly still off. dunno how tt's possible, but yeh. whatever.

ugh. thursday and friday wer e like screwed up days. ytd was nice. din get into photog exco, not that i even expected to get in. was alridy laffing hysterically when i found out there were ppl who nominated me to run for exco. lol. and i din even gif my nomination speech, which isn't surprising since i was at youth avenue. so yeh. too bad lar. luckz to the exco this yr, even tho i'm quite sure only one of u has my blog url. hahahahaha

ok lar. what's next? oh yeh. i gaf charissa a lift home ytd also. since it was like gg to rain. dunno why i did tt for jumpy little girl, but nvm. i think she's the same height as my sister, horror of horrors. haha. i juz realised i've blogged abt enghui and FA club meeting twice alridy. but yeh. whatever. too damn fagging depressed to go back and delete it.

i'm staring at my stuff right now and wondering why the hell i even have to start studying. i seriously need some incentive rite now.

i think i shall spam hate mail.

i hate this world, and i hate all this apathy (quote from adam's blog. i think i read this some time ago) more quotes from adam. i HATE YOU for being SO STUPID!!! lol

oh yeh. i spent most of this wk with yiwen during lunch times, since it's like og no one wants to go for lunch anymore. too few ppl. so yeh. quite ok lar. but i guess i need to find more things to do with my life. was helping her to look for sth for her brudder. i think i was more of a hinderance, so yeh. need to start thinking abt ppl's bday prezzies alridy. esp some1's bday which is coming up in June. and this some1 arr... keeps on asking me what i want for my bday which is over, and i like tell her, anything, then she say until i tell her what, then she wun buy. LOL

i think i'm super random. and feeling damn crap today. need to get over this depression. Cyrus thinks i'm being super hypocritical putting on a happy face for this world to see. but so what? this is how i work, and too bad. u want to see depression? stupid idiot.

ugh. i think my blog is becoming more depressed as the days go by. sorta like the stuff i keep telling wanchee n enghui not to do, since they r the owners of the only 2 blogs which are depressing lotsa times. oh yeh. the F*** is not a vulgarity in case u were wondering. it's FRAG.and yes. i feel like fragging everything rite now.

i need to destress. i need top play Xbox. my wife has been like sitting there for a mth or so, untouched by human hands. ok. i think abt 1 term or so alridy. Zzz. can't rmb who said i was married to my Xbox. i think it was wanchee or sth. haha.

missing some1 seems too hard, not missing some1 seems even harder. it's always lidis. and we can't turn back.

dunno what that line was for, but yeh. whatever.

and NO! i'm not gg for CO or chorale concert. CO nvr. chorale, only if my entire og goes, aka more than 30% of ppl go. sorrie lor. i juz dun wanna go and see toh ban seng conduct. very stupid and irritating. so all the chorale ppl who read my blog, SHOO!!! go work my my og first. same for all the CO ppl. GIF UP~!!!!!

ok. i think tt's all the angst i can come up with today. at least for the moment. shall attempt more tonite. buhbyeez

11:27 am
>>>Lost n still lookinG<<<

Lyrics

Air Supply - All Out Of Love

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

Saturday, April 29, 2006

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