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sometimes i wanna scream
sometimes i wanna cry
sometimes i wonder what this life is all about
Sunday, August 06, 2006
sucks
ok. it's less than like 52 days to examinations. n i think i better start mugging.
woke up today n i suddenly felt like there's totally no point in working, no point in being nice to ppl, no point in taking any crap from ppl, no point in even tryin to be a nice person. so YES. i'm not gg to do any of that anymore. i'm sick of it all. juz like leave me alone. and dun come n bother me. gimme some space n juz get the hell out of my fricking life. i juz want quiet.
i haven been myself this entire yr, tryin my best to b nice to ppl n being 'sociable'. i think there's no need. i'll juz keep to my small gp of frenz n b happy. there's no point in being nice when every1 arnd u is juz looking for an opening to backstab u.
i guess i slda seen it from like feb alridy. but i was hoping that ppl wld mature within like mths after sec sch. i mean, after all. like add one yr to ur life is a lot. well for me at least. but yes. there's no use in being a nice guy. so yes. i'm gg to b myself from now onwards. go home immediately after sch, unless i wanna play cards or i got CCA. mug like a mad dog. read star wars 24/7 n catch up on my research. *alwyn, i still dun believe that there's such a thing as the Eclipse. read Darksaber. THE EXECUTOR BANKRUPTED THE EMPIRE but yes, i'll research on tt as well*
lol. sometimes i wonder whether i'm being a sith liddis. i mean like it's all fine to b sociable with ppl, but i guess this whole yr i've been acting more like some social animal rather than myself. i need to find my center. i need to see mountains. i need to see trees. mostly i juz need to get away from all this and find myself and who i really am. so yes. none of that anymore. i'll juz have to sit down n meditate. draw a meditation center and center myself. lol
so yes. i dun think i'll b blogging anymore. this is like my lowest low this entire yr, and it's occuring on a sunday. i've got a ton of work i gotta do, and another ton of work which i juz want to do. and there's not enof time in btn for me to do anything else. so yes. no more mapling after this wk. for that matter, no more comp games at all.
everything's gg to b cut down. no more floorball on fridays. except for this wk. CCAs only once a wk. i gotta start studying. sorrie photog. i guess that means u'll b marginalised. i noe i haven been gg for meetings, mostly cos i got H3 chem n i nvr noe whether u all end at 6 or 7. n no one sms-es me at 6, even tho i begged ppl to do it, and i dun wanna rmb. so yes. time to go now
one last time in a long while, buhbyeez
12:46 pm
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Xavier
17 yrs old
12 April 1989
Rafflesian
Photography, Floorball, First Aid
Mugger
X-box-er
Mapler
Guitar player (lol... i juz started. and i suck)
Star Wars Fanatic
BLEACH watcher
Wishes
Get gd grades
Get a PDA handphone
Get a 98degrees album
Find another hobby besides collecting first day covers
PLAY XBOX!!!
Get more interesting cards decks
Get a nice handphone pouch for my handphone =D
Get better earphones
A new BAG!!!
A NEW PDA case!!! HAHA
A new waterbottle. LOL
Random stuffs which are useful and do not remind me of studies i guess. haha
Someone and something
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Lyrics
Air Supply - All Out Of Love
I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong