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sometimes i wanna scream
sometimes i wanna cry
sometimes i wonder what this life is all about
Sunday, February 24, 2008
tired
yawns. dunno why i'm so damn tired. mebbe havent been slping enof. i dunno. abt 3 to 4 more days till my medication is over, but the stupid cough hasnt gone away yet. bloody irritating.
a lvls out this friday i think. =S haha dunno whether i sld b like freaking frightened or just like ok. lol. after all... can't change the results anymore isnt it. unless there's like some mega screwup at cambridge. lol. then again, my results still wont actually change. only become relatively better or worse XD
sigh. wanna xbox but lazy to dig out the stupid 360 from the hole i dumped it in. or rather, the hole my mum dumped it in >< slda kept it safely somewhere convenient so got no problems getting it out. haha
been going out with jo quite a lot. cos the retard has so much stuff to ask n her vectors is like psychotic... -.- if still nvr learn ar... i'm gonna like kill her or sth. lol. ok la mebbe not kill.
hmz... dunno what's gonna happen next wk la. just waiting to apply for university and hopefully i'll be able to get into medicine. wanna bcom a doctor, but i also dunno whether that's what i really wanna do next time. just taking life one step at a time n seeing whether it'll bear any fruit. lol. i dont really have any life plan yet ><
and yes. i dont care what anyone else says or what they think. as far as i am concerned NS is really a freaking waste of my time. if i had a bloody time turner or sth lidat, i'd just fast forward till after these 2 wasted years. but i can't. so fuggit. mebbe i'll take up a part time course or sth. i dunno. see first. dont wanna really waste 2 yrs of my life for absolutely nth at all. screw it
ok time to go back to slp. brb in the afternoon. THE late AFTERNOON
11:24 am
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Tuesday, February 19, 2008
shid
my cough still here. n it fucking wont go away. n i still cant talk. this sux
after 5 days its like there's totally no fugging improvement in my voice at all. so damn irritating. take all that medicine for totally nothing at all...
but well. it was all free so dussen really matter does it? budden again... anything that's free is probably not gonna b a gd thing so yea. sigh
feeling so damn bored. wanna go back camp le. but doctor gav me another day of mc. n well... my fever still pops up n disappears. came back just now with 37.3 then disappears. wish it'd just make up its mind, if it wanna come, then just come n get my knocked off n into hospital with 39degrees fever. instead of like this. appear, then disappear, then appear again ugh. so irritating.
medicine is making me drowsy. n staying at home while sick sux. wld rather b in tekong than here cannot go out n being sick n coughing up blood.
yes i'm really coughing up blood like mad. along wth phelgm n anything else i can think of coming out from my mouth. besides vomit ><
a lvls coming out soon. cant really wait. really wanna get them back n gloat/cry/moan over the results. like just get them done n over with man. wtf at all this waiting for them. sooner they r out the better. i can get on with life. apply for uni n scholarships n what not n get on with my life ><
ok time to go n slp. yeah i know its early but i'm drowsy n on medicine. cyall
6:57 pm
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Sunday, February 17, 2008
zzz
am fugging pisse off. cos i'm sick. i dont mind being sick. most of the times its just inconvenient. getting sick during BMT is what most ppl wld term gd. esp if u get to stay at home. BUT FUCKING LOSING MY VOICE IS PISSING ME OFF!!! I CAN'T FUCKING STAND THIS! I'D RATHER GET A FUCKING FEVER RATHER THAN LOSE MY FUCKING VOICE! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!
sry for vulgarities. been bottling it up for damn long. ever since i lost my voice. went to slp all ok. wake up next morning. bam. voice gone. its been 3 days alridy n my voice still isnt back. still almost as bad as ever. damn fugging irritating. next wk is field camp. cant say i'm looking fwd to it, but well... with this stupid mc, there's always the chance i might hav to re-field camp with another company, even tho i'm not supposed to even go for it n i'm only staying over at nite? lol
damn stupid. can't take it anymore. fuck this cough. cant get rid of the phelgm. cant talk. can't do a single thing. fugging irritating
i hate all this fucked up world. if u had my virus, u wld too.
2:28 pm
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Wednesday, February 06, 2008
NS
ok so i got back out of my 2 wks confinement. haha. i think i'm damn slack. go in there and whole day sit there stare and stone... wth cos my health got problem. so excuse this excuse that excuse everything... n my hand still hurts but well... that's my problem. lol
anyway 2 wks confinement wasnt as bad as i thought. i still dont really like having to go into NS but well... i'm alridy in and not gonna come out anytime soon unless i get a scholarship or go medicine so yeah. hav to just slog out these 2 stupid years and hope i dont become retarded due to lack of brain usage. so yea
which reminds me. gotta remember to call the 2 retards/sms them so i can arrange outings this wk ahahaha. so much stuff i wanna do n so little time. seems like forever since i last touched this baby --- my laptop sickos...
so yea
o wells. got so much stuff to do n so little time. i wanna soak in a gd hot water bath, and put in some oils to relieve my joints. they hurt cos of all the walking but well... if i dont walk then i'll b like totally dead cos i wont b doing anything but sitting at one spot. and no way is that gonna happen to me so yea. sigh
ok enof abt that back to comp gaming. no time to slack off. must reach lvl 100 by this wkend!!! rawr vet class here i come all shall fear me n despairrrrr!!!
2:56 pm
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Xavier
17 yrs old
12 April 1989
Rafflesian
Photography, Floorball, First Aid
Mugger
X-box-er
Mapler
Guitar player (lol... i juz started. and i suck)
Star Wars Fanatic
BLEACH watcher
Wishes
Get gd grades
Get a PDA handphone
Get a 98degrees album
Find another hobby besides collecting first day covers
PLAY XBOX!!!
Get more interesting cards decks
Get a nice handphone pouch for my handphone =D
Get better earphones
A new BAG!!!
A NEW PDA case!!! HAHA
A new waterbottle. LOL
Random stuffs which are useful and do not remind me of studies i guess. haha
Someone and something
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Lyrics
Air Supply - All Out Of Love
I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong